Come Out and Play:

Looking ever so sweet in his jeans and Converse sneaks, he jumps off the cannon and heads towards me. I take his hand and we head out into the setting sun to go on an adventure that will lead us to strange and new places that only our imagination can take us. With the innocence of children, we laugh and joke and enjoy the moment for what the moment brings is magickal and thus never ending.

The world is our playground and, like two children, we take full advantage of it. He is the king and I am the queen. Although not of royal blood, we have ascended the monkey bars and thus we run the grounds as far as our eyes can see. The hobby horses are not only our court, but also our steeds on which we gallop the grounds. Granted, the coil that holds them in place keep us in place as well, however, only those who would lay eyes on us would see that. Actually, we are like the children who jump through the chalk drawing in Mary Poppins. We may not have carousel horses, but ours are just as grand if not more so.

He has a surprise for me at a special park. There in the middle lies a giant spider web made of cable and oh so craftily suspended. Not even the great weaver Arachne herself could weave such a design to withstand our weighted passions. As this is my surprise from him, I too must give him a surprise. Being the good little spider that I am, I head to the center of the web and beckon him to join me. The playful child quickly begins to lose her childlike innocence and turns to a woman and then from a woman to "the black widow." Her invite to be joined does not go unnoticed by the boy who turns to a man and then from a man to a mate. He heads toward me.
Although he enters the web with anticipation, I too have anticipations. Under the full moon, we are many shades of gray and yet our true colors show through. I entwine myself within the web rather than entwine him and wait for him to prey upon me. This widow shall not kill her mate, however, she will allow him to devour her. ~ 11/27/06

Lust

Lying before him, my head rises and I see his body of masculinity in all its glory.  I gaze into his eyes and maintain my sights and wit while bearing witness to his hands that press firmly upon me.  His hands are like no other in that they are sculptured like fine marble in pristine manner made possible by a master.  He lays grasp upon my thighs and pries me to his way.  Better and more beautiful hands could not be found on Adonis as his tone is human.  Aye, a bit of a struggle is given, yet in all sincerity, my longing does not want him to waver.  Steadfastly, he lays claim to what is justly his and pours forth his rod into my fever and feeds the very fire that he has ignited. - 11/21/06 at 7:03 p.m.

Is it a human being or a human doing?

"Is it a human being or a human doing?"To err is human, to forgive is divine...
Can it be said that divinity can evolve out of forgiveness? Humans err more oft than not yet see more so in others than themselves. Shortcomings of status occur when reflections are not seen in those akin. Thus, those that can extend forgiveness without piety are more akin to god than human.

Who shall cast the first stone? Many. They are oh too human in doing. ~ 11/06/06

Inspired by and written to "Nathan"

Where Dost Madness Dwell?

Where Dost Madness Dwell?
If insanity dwells within
And heresy is accused
Rest on the laurels of thy base
Or be defiled of thine own being
Madness is what controlled men fear
Their animal lurks beneath their wool clothes
Like a wolf in sheep's skinned stealth
The true blade lies within this sheath o skin
Double edged yet bloodless
More runs through the veins in a leaf
Than bears metal in thine arteries
O petrified forest of men
Whose hearts have turned to stone
Whose legs have taken root to ground
Whose branches no longer expand
Dare to think like a mad hatter or a March hare
And allow Sherwood to thrive ~ 11/5/06

Dreams Disturbed

Over the course of months, I have had a few dreams about a particular person which caused me to wake each and every time.

In the first dream I was awake and received criticism for something as silly as spelling mistakes. His chastisement woke me out of my sleep.

The second dream, I was asleep within. However, he again roused and aroused me in a way that I will keep to myself. The seeming reality of the dream woke me from my actual sleep and delightfully so.

Within the dream last night, I was again asleep, but the method of his crafty kiss succeeded to wake me in the dream and in reality.

Damn, I only slept about 4 hours. Help! What is going on here? Hum. ~ 11/4/06

Letting out some stream

Whaa I am in thinking mode and I want to pull my hair out by the roots!  It is just another day of feeling like shit.  Yeah okay I have put myself in this situation, but would I have it any other way?  NO.  You may ask why do I do this to myself?  Feelings at any level, whether it is pain or pleasure, is a feeling had.  Sometimes what feels like pleasure for one second, makes you feel like shit for years after and therefore it is a pain.  I am trying to figure out if pain and pleasure are one and the same.

So I don’t sound too off the wall I will try to explain this.  When you love someone (it doesn’t matter who it is in your life), even if it is briefly (briefly could even be 20 years in the course of a lifetime), that love stays with you regardless of what they do to/for you.  The absence of that individual for whatever time between the end of the relationship (due to parting of ways or death) and the end of your life is a hell of a long time.

This may sound like I am dwelling in the past, however, the past is a connection to the present and the future and does not only apply in a love situation.

Now think on this: What hurts more...physical or emotional pain?  Not for anything, but I would rather take a beating.  Black eyes, broken bones, cracked head, and many other things are not so bad in comparison.  After reading this over, I realize that they can tie into each other because I would have to look at who is causing the pain and why.

If the person is a stranger who punches your face, you see black and lash out at them with everything you have built up inside you with a massive fury.  The impact of the punch that they have given you does not really hurt. It is almost like you want them to give you an excuse to vent.  Then again if a person you love hits you, you may or may not lash back.  If you do lash back, it would be mild in comparison.  Pain does not even have to be delivered by blows as it can come from words that cause scars and internal damage.  Boy could I chase my tail on this one.  When I start to think about it, it is all fucked up!

There is negative and positive attention.  As a kid, I sought attention from my parent in any way that I could get it.  While in the custody of a care giver, I did not seek attention at all, but I did receive negative and destructive attention.  In conjunction with the negative and positive attention I got from my parent, I started to tune out and stray out into oblivion to deaden all feeling or find a hole in the ground.  In the end, even though I found what I believe to be myself after recovering my feelings and trying to deal with them, myself and my feelings turned out to be what a mishmash.  At least I did not succeed to the hole in the ground even though it was sought a few times.  Coming to terms with myself was not an overnight process as it is still a work in progress.  Hell, I may never find out who and what I am, but I won’t give up my evolution regardless of the bumps and bruises that occur along the way.  At this point, I allow myself to feel, but at the same time, I realize that I can turn it all inward and disappear. ~ 11/4/06 @ 10:36 a.m.

The Fight in Sheepshead Bay

The Fight in Sheepshead Bay
More memories...

Everyone that knew me, knew I had one vicious temper as I never held anything back. What made Roxanne and Julianne think that I would let it go after I went after them with a baseball bat and threw Andrew down a flight of stairs? Their idle threats that I should watch my back fell on deaf ears. I don't think Andrew let them know what they were up against. That is too bad. At least Andrew told the boyfriend of some Jersey bitch who I bloodied by the pit, to leave before I did more damage to her face. He also warned this other bitch named Sue to leave before I stabbed her. * Clarification...I was wielding a knife and I sliced something and told her she was next. Trust me when I say that her ass moved real quick.

Let's get real here. Not for anything, these people were warned. Some people don't take warnings seriously. Duh!

I had gone looking for Roxanne with a chain wrapped around my fist. Prep work was done prior to leaving home such as making sure that I took off my earring, necklaces, or anything that could bring me down. My blood was boiling and my intent of finding her was great. If I would have found Julianne, her ass would have been kicked instead. Both of them would have been fought if I had to. These two bitches violated respect in a big way and deserved to get hurt. However, Roxanne deserved it more than Julianne. I was in front of the train station in the Bay when I saw her with some of her friends and I called her out to fight. All is fair...I was alone and she had her friends. Right in the middle of the street we had a brawl and I was nailing her. This ass of a guy, whose name escapes me at the moment, but whom I later became friends with jumped me from behind so I flipped him and gave him a heel in the gut. It must have hurt because he held it while lying on the ground. The sound of his head hitting the asphalt sounded like a coconut. Clunk! Everyone heard it. The crowd was laughing at him for getting nailed by a girl. His male friends also gave him shit as it was not fair that he jumped in. Damn it is funny that I can remember his house and could find it tomorrow, but his name is gone. What is funny about this story is that Julianne, the guy I flipped, and their friends became friends with me. Roxanne moved. ~ 11/3/06 ** The guy's name was Billy.

Art of the Time

From out of the Dark Ages there was light
The light was the art of the schools
By whose hands gave us insight to past minds and their view of history
We can note in the paintings of Giotto (1266 - 1336), Duccio Di Buoninsegna (1260? - 1319?), Sassetta (1392 - 1450), and Antonello da Messina (1430? - 1479?) that they viewed past histories from in their own time rather than in its actual time period.

In essence, we are given a good view of the painter's point in time and life in that time.

When thou casts and eye to literature, do cast an eye to art. ~ 11/2/06

Beckon Thy Ear

Shard o shard
Dig deep within thee
Let not simmering peace be known’st
Burrow that of malicious intent
Speak naught of that which is arbitrary
And pulls at and upon thy reason
Tis known that birds of plunder are put asunder
By axe or arrow doomed be known
Be not shallow engravings on tin
But grave wounds to the heart
Ready a spit for the harvester
As the sacred lamb shall be put to death ~ 11/2/06

Humanity by the Wayside

Lying across my bed I weep tears of sorrow
As the smell of decay has penetrated and provoked my nostrils
And has entered my throat
Escape as I try
These savage scents do not grant me rest
And its residual taste lingers upon my buds
Putrid in form and order
That oft lie overwhelmed is the state of it
My eyes are not blind       
Nor are my ears deaf
And I feel as I do
Alas, my senses have not been deprived
The battery thereof has been pushed to excess
So much so that if all and all could be placed in a sphere
Not even Atlas himself could hold charge
Of what I am sent to borrow from those of less fortune
Grant me strength that I may share my load
With those of heart
With thee who see humanity where humanity has been abandoned
Do take heed ~ 11/2/06

“Captain Caveman”

"Captain Caveman" is a nickname that a good friend gave to another friend of mine quite awhile back. At the time I did not agree and defended the poor bastard. Now after pondering the thought, a caveman would not have manners nor would he know how to interact well socially with civilized people

Let me continue...

This is the case of one male that I had befriended. Those of you who have asked for my help, can attest that I have been more than willing to give assistance when asked. Even if not asked and you are having difficulty, I offer you my assistance. You kind folks in return have always said "thanks." It is a simple gesture of courtesy. Sure it is fine to skip a "thank you" here and there between friends, but to never say it? To never be polite or friendly? To be forever PMSing? Something is wrong with the picture right? Perhaps there is something wrong with the individual himself? I pity the poor bastard as it would seem that he, "Captain Caveman," is TERMINALLY hopeless in the friendship department. Maybe one day he will wake up and smell the coffee, however, he may wake up alone. Isn't that a sad scenario? Pathetic if you ask me.

Respect sits high with me and he has crossed the line on more than one occasion. However, being the sucker that I am, I will always have a place in my heart for him and I will always be open to being his friend. Damn, I must be a total horse's ass. LMAO Nah, I am just a nice person with wicked ways. Actually, had he been an ornery friend in REAL LIFE rather than on the internet, I would have belted him. Friends belt each other then get over it if they are TRUE friends. Somebody correct me if I am wrong. PLEASE... ~ 10/23/06

Echo Me to Thee

Shall I be broken to conform to his will?
Nay, my will shall be given to him freely
As it has always been there for him
Awaiting his approval
Why break a wild stallion
When the stallion will bow like a valiant show horse
Before a seasoned trainer?
My self-appointed reigns have been humbly offered to him
He just needs to make this realization
I have gentled my condition to him from the start
Yet the capability of my viciousness is known
As we are two sides of the coin
Possessing both good and evil
We can shake hands with our right hand while stabbing with our left
Is it not better to accept the relinquished will of another
And accept a handshake?
Rather than twist them to form
And risk a stab in the back?
What true power can be gained if in fact power is had?
Where is the victory?
Nay to cries of victory over foothills
Aye to those over mountains!
Echo me to thee ~ October 18, 2006

Listening to Lohengrin, Opera, WWV: Act III: Prelude

Speechless

Reel to reel
Black and white
The creation of a lifelike pictorial without spoken words is hard to envision as vocal inflection is not present
Thus every action is exaggerated
Animations are made in the best way possible to elicit emotions
Albeit emotions can be negative or positive based on the character
We have the villain, victim, hero, heroine, comic, et al
And each one of them pulls something from us while feeding us at the same time
Very much so the internet reminds me of a silent movie
The only difference is that I am not only watching the Nickelodeon
I am on screen as well
Without the help of a director
Actions can be misinterpreted
I am ready for my close-up Mr. DeMille
Can someone change the REAL? ~ 9/30/06

O, There Art No Name

A woman's heart dost seem to fall for the bard
'Tis not so much the content of the verse as it is the gesture
Yet gesture's form does bear merit more so
Who amongst thee will approach bearing verse?
Not of idle rhyme
Per chance be of curious glorious nature
Will thou delve deeper than surface whilst allowing the same?
Can’st thou set aside judgment as it is thy bar?
All in all, judgment in true form shall not need pardon
Be it ever so fair
Ever so humbly, I submit!          
O come thee, I pray you
My chamber door lies rightly ajar - 9/27/06

Double Take

Not too far from shore lies a portly estate that sits in well with it's overlooking surroundings. Blue is the main color of the maison's clapboards, however, all the details have been whitewashed for distinction. Distinctly so, high in it's majesty a woman walks wearing a treaded path in the floorboards.

Aye, 'tis the "widow's walk!" Encased in fragile spindles of distinction, she paces and looks far off into the distance of the Atlantic hoping to see his approaching vessel near the craggy shore. Her brows knit and her arms cross and uncross in frustration as her shawl gently blows in the salt wind. Mark her forehead which is also caressed by the wind as the movement of her strands expose a widow's peak. Has she been doubly crossed to walk that which she is? - 9/27/06

Conclusion:

Although I did not give up on he who I sought out, he has made it quite clear that he has no interest.  Oh well shit happens.  I am not mad nor am I upset as this scenario was prepared for.  Rejection is easy to handle if you have handled if from the best.  The best would be your parent.    You may think that maybe I purposefully influenced this outcome, but trust me I did not.  It seems that me being me is not tolerable.  Who else might I be then if not myself?  That is a good one to ponder. - 9/26/06

Confession:

I have given my heart out and fessed up to something that I had been repressing for sometime. What happens upon doing something so bold is that I risk being rejected. This is all part of life and I have learned that rejection can be dealt with based on past experience. Thus having dealt with it in the past, the re-experience of rejection opens many wounds yet, at the same time, adds metal to being. Maybe metal is not the appropriate word...call it another brick in the wall so to speak as it kind of closes me into myself. However, that is not to say that I wouldn't do it all over again as I would. It is not known at this time if rejection has occurred, however, it must be assumed to prepare myself. What is the worst thing that could happen? I will tell you...I will go off into a corner and lick my wounds until they heal and start all over again. That is the never ending battle...take a licking and keep on ticking. - 9/23/06

TWO

Miserable forsaken restrictions
Me can’st untie the tide
Nor cause the moon to wane
Tis but a part of nature
Yet unnatural structure need be modified
As do or die has not been exceeded
Aye, the crash of thunder rings in my ears
Thoughts upon a pondering
Tis not to be drowned out by silence
Albeit silence loud, thought engulfs
Making it dead
Forlorn smoke billows
Amidst great city stacks
Seeking a refuge upon the sky
Grand pillows of white lie open
Gathering and multiplying
Forming one
Oh boldness
My will to continue shall not go undone - 9/23/06

CONVERSATIONS BETWEEN MY EXPERIMENT AND SELF.

I CALL THIS “NEEDY” CONVERSATIONS.

You may notice that I am not very nice to him (cold as a witch’s left tit) and at the end I deny him and he buckles at my bark.  Too bad you couldn’t have borrowed John’s ears when he heard him whining on the phone (multiple times).  That man was so insecure he thought that I was fucking that kid as he sure wasn’t getting another piece of me.  John laughed at him as he heard everything that Randy was saying and Randy heard John laugh as I had him on speaker phone to further humiliate him.  I am so bad when I am bad.  Me thinks that it irked him that I told him I manipulated him and how.  Perhaps that is why he wanted his victory.

A gold digger would take this sucker for a buggy ride.  He THOUGHT he could buy me as he has money and was willing to take care of me.  As if I would let that happen.  I insulted him, his home, and his demeanor.  I told him that I would jump all over his leather couches and write on his walls in crayon.  He had agreed  so long as he didn’t have to watch.  LMFAO.  See what happens when I don’t love someone?  This kind of shit went on for three months before he buggered off.  I would not see him much less fuck him again.  Perhaps you will grasp the concept of poser.  Note that I had interviewed (but not even so much as smooched their lips) several doms/masters for information purposes to see how they tick.  They really don’t.  They usually have multiple subs as they are superficial people and to them it is PLAYING.  I don’t play which is the difference.  The one thing I did get from them including Randy boy here was RESPECT.  You will note within the dialogue that I DO NOT LOVE HIM and that I CANNOT even JUST sleep with him.  I laid it out...NO SPARK.  

Randy says (9:02 PM): hey

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:02 PM): yo

Randy says (9:03 PM): how was your day

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:03 PM):most excellent. how was yours?

Randy says (9:03 PM):long but good

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:03 PM):so now you are tired?

Randy says (9:03 PM): yes

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:03 PM):gee, how did I know.

Randy says (9:04 PM):shut up

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:04 PM):make me.

Randy says (9:04 PM):4 am to 8 pm is a long day let me

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:04 PM):you choose it. no. make me.

Randy says (9:04 PM): ok I will

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:04 PM):realize you can't do anything that I don't allow.

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:05 PM):that, my love, is the reality of it all.

Randy says (9:05 PM):I know as do you

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:05 PM):yuppers on that one.

Randy says (9:05 PM):so what now?

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:05 PM):what do you mean?
Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:06 PM):are you eating green cheese or something?

Randy says (9:06 PM):If I were to arrive tomorrow afternoon would you greet me in the nude wearing only your collar?

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:06 PM):no. as I won't be here.

Randy says (9:07 PM):too bad for us

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:07 PM):Oh, it was an IF question. The answer is NO.

Randy says (9:07 PM):and if it was not an if ?

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:07 PM):It would still be no.

Randy says (9:07 PM):k

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:08 PM):You have not come that far to pull that kind of rank.

Randy says (9:08 PM):I do want to Own you

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:08 PM):Earn it.

Randy says (9:08 PM):wear a collar when I get there tomorrow

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:08 PM):I won't be here.

Randy says (9:09 PM):too bad for you

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:09 PM):Even if I were here, I wouldn't do it. Why too bad for me? I have no regret.

Randy says (9:10 PM):you want to be owned and I want to Own so too bad you are not there tomorrow night is all where are you tomorrow night?

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:11 PM):I see. Note you should be aware of: I would need to love you for you to have that absolute and it is not even absolute power over me. Do you understand me? I will be working on my car at the factory and then walking my gf so that she loses weight.

Randy says (9:12 PM):ok I understand good night princess

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:12 PM):goodnight dear.

Randy says (9:13 PM):call me if you like

Arachne - Watching You Tube says (9:13 PM):get off your ass and call me.

Randy: hi babe

Randy: you here?

Arachne: yeah
Randy: how have you been?
Arachne: I am watching this...http://bethe.cornell.edu/video1_large.html

Randy: what?

Arachne: click the damn link

Randy: ok

Arachne: ty

Randy: quatum I love it !!

Arachne: Cool. I did send you an invite to stumble upon. you will only get sites that you have interest in.

Randy: yes but I have no time

Arachne: too bad
Arachne: how is your ear?

Randy: for who?

Arachne: for you.

Randy: it’s still blocked but thanks for asking

Arachne: sorry to hear that

Randy: I am letting my body heal itself

Randy: lol funny

Arachne: sounds good

Randy: what are you doing?

Randy: tonight?

Randy: tonight?

Arachne: watching that vid. before that I was watching a dvd Along Came a Spider.

Randy: ok

Arachne: you?
Randy: I need a hug
Arachne: HUG

Randy: yes

Arachne: :D
Arachne: there you go
Randy: not so good
Arachne: no?

Randy: ty

Arachne: yw

Randy: I want a hug from you a eal one

Randy: real

Arachne: why?

Randy: just need your hug]

Randy: ok

Randy: may I cum over?

Arachne: well if you ask "may I cum [sic] over," I assume you know how to get here.

Randy: I need some directions

Randy: Mags

Randy: what does SIC mean?

Arachne: it means that you spelled it incorrectly and as I am quoting you, I am showing that it is your spelling mistake.
Arachne: it is used in term papers.

Randy: ok

Randy: want to wake up with me ?

Randy: yes or no?

Arachne: you have to find my spark.

Randy: ok

Randy: we can talk about it in bed no sex

Arachne: so you have stated.

Randy: yes or no?

Arachne: I can't sleep with you for reasons previously stated.  I don’t love you.

Randy: call me

Arachne: call you what? turkey? lol

Randy: NOW

Arachne: you call me.
Arachne: your fingers still work right?
Randy: call me
Arachne: you call me.
Arachne: get off your ass and call me.

Randy: bitch

Arachne: ty
Arachne: I hear the ring

A LIBRA AT PHILOSOPHY

If you are capable of thinking it, you are capable of doing it!!!

A harness is for a horse.

Escape that which burdens you and fly like an eagle as all is possible in the mind.

That is what you are FREE...NOW LIVE LIFE!!!

LIVE LIFE to it FULLEST.

Rip away that which leashes you unto yourself. Let your being SOAR (imagine flames coming out of this word)!!!

Icras did not make it, but you CAN!!! No waxy wings here. (Can you see the wind beneath your wings?)

Free spirt lies in imagination...in imagery. Close your eyes and find out.

Play some loud music and dance to your heart's content (no matter if you are 5 or 75) or until your legs, heart, or head hurt, but have fun doing it. PLAY WITH THE MOMENT AS IT IS YOURS!!! The fountain of youth is in your head...let it pour!!!

Play some soft music that takes you away on a cloud and HUG YOURSELF or CRY if you have to!!!

Envision fancy commodities and GRASP them from air. Aye, this may sound like lunacy, but when was the last time you let your child out? Let it out as it is screaming for FREEDOM!!!

Read a FAIRY TALE and play a role in the story...become part of it and the journey will be an adventure to remember.

We are not predefined and limited. Our scope is only limited by what we allow. Do not allow closure as you will suffocate and die!!

Not for anything folks, but you can pick yourself up by the britches and make a go at it, whatever IT might be, RUN...

Go Now and Live Life! Enjoy that what you have!

WeeHa!

NOTE: Do not die an automaton...you are REAL! ~ Maggie 9/20/06

The Danger of Comfort

No one can beat me up better than I can beat myself up
Maybe that is why I don't give a damn and I don't fear anything
Like a chain, I am only as strong as my weakest link
My weak link is memories/heart
They are what make me foolish
The armor that shields these memories was let down
And my heart was pierced by someone I do not know
Thus I have compromised myself
As a side of me that has been hidden
Has now been exposed in detail
To eyes that appeared understanding
Perhaps that was a misconception on my part
Maybe I sought understanding and found a brief moment of it
Perhaps I have let too much out that I shouldn't have
In a manner that should not have been had
Yet what has been done cannot be undone
Has a lesson been learned?
Not really
As much as coming out of my sheath hurt
There was a benefit in the sharing
In that I felt understood for but a moment
Yeah a whole fleeting moment
Perhaps that moment wasn't even real
However, the opening of my scar tissue is devastating to my being
It is easier to hide behind humor and sarcasm
Than to come forward                          
If only there were a hole deep enough to climb into
I would climb in and hide forever
Alas, I dwell in the dark anyway
What hell could be worse? - Arachne 9/20/06

Encryption

As I do like to ponder and often wonder...
Am I being deceived?
Can one be of two faces twice twined betwixt and between?
Is it a sad fallacy that has not quite gone unnoticed?
Not quite caught off guard but guarded?
Do I really comprehend the data?
The eyes pick up on certain aspects which in turn tell the brain...THINK
Can duality exist in one
Not exactly from opposite spectrums
More so at face? - 9/17/06

Allegiance

To what do we owe our allegiance? God, man, country? What purpose does it serve? Does it serve us in the process or does it take away from us in the end?
I owe allegiance unto myself
I have no country and
I bow before no god nor man
Unless it be a man of my choosing
Therefore, will he be my god?
No he will not be my god as man is fallible
Yet he will be revered as a god
In turn, I expect to be revered as well
In thus doing, am I true unto myself?
Has my allegiance been maintained?
I believe so

Allegiance to self means that you bear full and absolute responsibility for your actions or lack thereof and you do not place the blame/credit on others - 9/1/06

The Beaten Children

REAL LIFE PLAYERS: Me & my brother, Jonie (I do not remember her mother's name.), David, Robert, Greta, Michelle (brothers & sisters) - Mother = Dolores, Darlene (cousin to the above) RIP Darlene - Mother = Joanne (sister to Dolores), Howard & Regina (brother and sister) - Mother = Helen
In silent recesses, I look back
Much of what I thought to be reality
And the horrors experienced during childhood
Have been confirmed
These were not things I made up
But through the eyes of a seven year-old
What is clarity?
Can one really remember the experience?
Sometimes I wonder if it was a nightmare as
Child abuse is unsettling
Yet it gives me peace knowing the gun was not pointed at me
The chains, belts, threats of murder, and repeated beatings
Look narrow in comparison
As she was not my mother
Only now have I been made aware of her illness
The woman at whose hands showed no mercy
Hated children
Why was she allowed to take in so many?
Why did one (Darlene) die at age two? (Actually, she was murdered by her mother and her mother's boyfriend.)
Perhaps she was spared
It is we the survivors who bear the inner scars
It is we who cannot explain to those who have not known
That which lies within and causes fear - 8/27/06

The Perverse Poet

What madness instills itself within my mind
Posing threats to my very existence
Biting off sanity for lesser consequence
Thought wields a baton like a ceremonial majorette
Never ceasing it's march in down-trodden rhythm
It's loud stomping feet drown echoes
Of silence disturbed as unguarded
Willows weep and faceless flowers bow
Never again to seek the sun
Escaping...
Hatchways close and lock
Although the turning of the keys are visible
The visibility of hand escapes me
Corridors are excessive and confusing
Paths are continuous and forked
Tis not a bridle path, but more so a thorned row
Riddled with inescapable lash and backlash
Scarring and impregnating with brine pricks
Inflicting greater pain to soft tissue marred
Although squamous torn
In its depth it festers and oozes life - 8/27/06

Hollow

Defined sadness dwells within and upon me
Like an anchor whose weight cannot be proportioned
To create a fine balance
Frustration and unfulfilled dreams
Leave me weary as I feel incapable of success
Not knowing that which I need to know
Drains me
And I am hollow
Maddening nature flee from me and rid me of my heart
Face burned by lava like tears etching stains
That cannot be removed
Nay the erosion cannot be seen by thee
Nor shall I allow that specter visibility
Attempts will be made to keep that which crashes like waves
Upon the barren shores
In a storm unlike no other
Contained within and not seeking refuge
Self-contempt lies at failure
As I do not see realization
My spirit dies in the hollow depths
Of my self-created hell - 8/27/06

Complexity

Fire is something that burns
Being one of the four elements, fire possesses great power
It can be cleansing in that it creates new growth such as land sees after a volcano's eruption or
After a forest fire
However, the burning of desire for one stunts the growth for that of others
This is not seen as a bad thing
Yet what is it that puts this fire to rest? AND
Does it actually ever get put to rest?
Does one want it put to rest?
It is after all a driving force
Passion is a strong emotion
An emotion that defies quantitive measurement
Therefore, how does one express that which there are no words for?
Maybe some things defy expression and justification because they are what they are
Components of a being are quite complex
To say that one thing is liked above all else within someone
Does not quite overlook all that is connected to them
As the component is a fraction of the whole
Acceptance is made for part and parcel
Complexity may be frustrating to sort out, but one can have a blast trying
And yet never figure it out at all
It sounds like that is what can keep something very interesting
Ah the wonderful and never ending exploration of an individual and their vastness of mind
Arachne - 8/18/06

The Value of Human Life

How meaningful is our lives? What impact have we made and if an impact was made, who was affected by it? How many were affected by it? Can they be named? If we were to disappear off the plant, would we be missed and for how long? Can it be said that we have left something of ourselves behind? If so, what might that be? Would it be tangible or intangible? What is the value of human life? Who places the value on that life and what are its ceilings and floors? How would things differ if we had never been born? "It's A Wonderful Life" starring Jimmy Stewart gave us an example of a man who helped others and made a difference even though he did not view them as major works. How do our lives fair up in comparison? What have we done? What have we yet to do?

This is just a reflection of thought on what it will be like when we leave this world or what it would be like had we never been born. Who has taken a personal inventory here? If so what can you tell me? - August 7, 2006

Exploration of Skin

Lying on my side, I am in a dream
Yet his hands are felt as they touch my skin
Starting from my legs, he works his way upward
Although my mind is in a dream,
The touch is breaking trough and awakening me
Distantly, I hear moans escape from my throat
The longing for more is excessive
The need to be touched in secret places is greater
His strong hands has reach my hip and he rubs it sweetly
Slowly, his hands creep towards my tummy
The rubbing of my lower tummy
Causes me to roll onto my back
Allowing for greater exploration
Although totally conscious,
My eyes are closed and I await further exploration ~ 8/6/06

Reflections:

Much to her dislike, she sits and stares off into the mirror looking past her own reflection as vanity does not become her. Had she bothered to view herself, she would have faced the frown lines made possible by timeless worry and the lines near her mouth indicating that she has smiled on more than one occasion. What is it then that she does not want to see?  Is there something about her being that she does not like?  She seems quite comfortable in her shell as she has worn it well. 

Has her beauty been drained dry the harsh winds, intense heat, dirt of the day, and acid rain?  The four elements of life have attacked and this bothers her not as it has made her a better person: a person she can live with. What bothers her most is that people read books from the outside first and then decide based on it’s cover if it is worth exploring.  This is what she searches for past her reflection.  She hopes that others will search past it as well.  Call this an experiment to see if the superficial can be warded off and discarded like old clothes.  The reality is that there is a possibility that she will be discarded like the rags of a beggar made rich. - 7/27/06

On men’s faces, character is added: on women’s faces it is a fading beauty.

YOUR PORTRAIT

I stare into your portrait and wonder
A million thoughts
Engulfed with many visions
Real and surreal
Do you really exist?
Or does my mind play tricks on me?
Is reality subjective or objective?
Although I search deeply
The color of your eyes escape me
It is not so much that thoughts are fleeting,
So much as it has not come to clarity
Lips sweetly together
Looking to be kissed gently
Perhaps kiss back roughly
As I think about your voice
And it’s soothing sound
I am captured without a fight - 7/24/06

Possibilities:

Desire is that which drives us to do great things.  For this reason, I will go to any length to achieve my goal(s).  A goal was within reach on three occasions, and on three occasions, I reacted rather than acted.  Thus, I wonder what would have happened upon action?  As I cannot turn back the hands of time, I know that my next move is to ACT.  This is being worked on at the moment and as soon as possible, I will be doing exactly what my little heart desires.  I will turn intent in to action.

It seems that I am in a bizarre situation, but also one that seems to be reminiscent of a great past love.  It is reminiscent in the fact that I did not give up on him despite many issues.  One issue that drove me away from my past love for good was his heroin use.  I am not saying that a LOVE presently exists, however, an interest does lie and that interest is being greatly driven by a desire to KNOW.

Every negative possibility is looked at and then turned into a positive possibility.  When I adjust myself accordingly, I can twist anything into being so.  Look at yourselves.  Have you meet people from Myspace and has it ALWAYS turned out good?  Some will say yes, no, and yes and no.  Those that say no, I say to you...LOOK AT WHAT YOU HAVE LEARNED from the experience.  Knowledge gained at any level should be relished and appreciated as it adds to your being.  Strength is built from the ground up.  When you feel you are at your weakest point, you are actually at your strongest.  How so?   SURVIVAL!  Your base instinct (or primal instinct) is to survive.  As a result, you fight upon your weakness even if you are not aware of yourself doing so.  If you are still here, you have survived that which has brought you down.  Did it not add metal to your armor and make you stronger?

The adventure that I intend to make, come hell or high water, will serve two purposes.

1) My curiosity will be quenched at long last.
2) I will see if greater interest lies there.

As two people are involved, this is a two way street with two different sets of standards/values.  What may be a standard/value to one, my not be a standard/value to the other.  This pretty much goes for any relationship be it family, friend, or love.

With family and friends, physical attraction does not really come into play.  It does come into play more so with love.  As far as I am concerned, the mind is far more attractive than superficiality.  Superficiality is just that...superficial.  What happens then when the surface fades, what content of the package is now desirable?  We all know that with age, accident(s), or illness(es) things do deteriorate and/or change.  Therefore, when choosing a mate, is it not best to seek that which will still be available once the superficiality is morphed/changed?  Isn’t depth better, i.e, contents? 

Two people face possible acceptance/rejection.  With acceptance on any level, there is harmony.  Rejection is a bit different.  How the rejection is handled is where negative possibilities can turn into positive possibilities.  As common ground exists, there is a base to start with. The way I am viewing this, he will only be rejected if he is disrespectful. That is my standard/value.

As I cannot speak for him, I do not know what it is that will guide his evaluation of me.  In the event I am rejected, for whatever reason, I have vowed to chalk it up to experience and have a good laugh...preferably with him.  Also, I will have had the opportunity to travel and know another human being.  Hey, maybe a long lasting friendship can evolve if nothing more.  Those are the positive possibilities.  Not too bad huh?

Again, as I can only speak for myself, anger and/or ill feelings will not exist.  He is entitled to his own feelings and I will not force him to feel for me what he does not.  This has to be a natural occurrence or it is doomed to failure.

When you go off on an adventure without expectations, you cannot be disappointed. - 7/21/06

Creaming My Jeans

Being horny is an abundant feeling of mine which has no boundaries or time limitations. However, self-satisfaction is getting old and this energizer bunny is damn tired of it. That being the case, I am actively seeking a mate drawing upon my utmost resources and using my ferocious nature. I will get my justice and my satisfaction one way or the other. That being said, WOE to HE who lays with me!!! His job will not be part-time nor seasonal. It is a full-time position which requires a great deal of attention and commitment. Please feel free to see the requirements noted on Myspace. Applications are now being accepted, however, the personnel office is temporarily closed (due to maintenance). Please see the receptionist.

I may be an old bitch, but I have lots of life left in me! ~ 7/20/06

A Shadow of Man

Amidst the midday a shadow is not cast
Yet lo, like the hand of a sundial, we do reflect the time
Our time
Askew at the first hour
And more so on the fourth
All is but a shadow
However, this shadow does bear semblance to its originator
Be they wide or narrow
Short or tall
One cannot tell one from the other
Lest they stand side by side
Then who is to judge the accuracy
Of that which is cast? - 7/4/06

An Ill request

Tis of a crooked night to save or borrow
That which means naught to sorrow
But left in destiny's hands
Ill, grave, wayward sadness
Marked upon my knitted brow
That which rhymes
Starved in pitied lights from near hearth
Spangled and withering
Left to dangle of idle husbandry
This will not find room in memory
But be spared time to wallow in gallantry
Take this dagger and lay it upon my heart
And spare me no recourse
As the cock will crow on the morrow - July 1, 2006

SLEEPLESS EVE

SLEEPLESS EVE
Silly woman, dost thou think thou hast strength?
That which thou air is but a farce
Weak kneed is what thou art
Examine thyself and expose thyself
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Oh heart of mine
Why dost thou long for him?
He who is so distant
Tis months now that this hath be
And the longing is worse
Aye, thou hast attempted to put him aside
Time and time again
Blocking thought at every opportunity
Yet time always brings thee back to him
Why can’st thou shake this feeling?
What draws thee?
Thou hast lost the chess match
Twas self-defeating in nature
Now my strength wanes in this ordeal
Oh magnet of my heart
Attach thyself upon him
Go swiftly
And finally become one
The coldness of my sheets requires warmth
But whilst thou settle for warmth or seek fire?
He hast captured my mind
And thus has ignited me
Passion is my fire
Nay, time hast not run out
Thou art not dead yet nor is he
You must go to him
Quench this loneliness in the fountain of hope and desire
If in calculation thou hast erred,
Tis only a fool I will be
If grounded by cautiousness,
Thou whilst make me sorrowful
Oh heart lie down and rest and my let heals take flight
There may be gladness at the end of the road - 7/1/06

Waking Thoughts

My thoughts upon waking:
Sometimes a dream can cause one to sit upright in bed gasping for breath. This was so this morning. Alas, what is causing my distress?
Standing alone on a cobble stone street
I stare at the black leather faces of my shoes
And view their void eyes save for laces
My skirts have not hidden these
What hides beneath cloak, cloth, and skin
Is an essence too strong to jar
Be it capture or shock
Tis weak to my knowing
Yet not so to the unassuming
Who goes there!
Whose eyes have glanced here?
Hark! the break of silent darkness!
In the distance, my ride can be heard
Clickety clack goes the hoofs of the black drawn carriage
All is illuminated by the waxing moon
Sight of shining wetness of a rain gone by
Is reflective and drawing
A puddle does make for a good looking-glass
Yet the subject is unwilling to see her portrait
But see it she does
Where is the horseman? - June 29, 2006

Dumb Ass

What is wrong with getting in touch with one's sexuality? NOTHING is wrong with it. To those who find sex offensive, I say CLIMB UP A CHICKEN'S ASS AND WAIT as that may be the only way for you to get your righteous dumb ass laid. As for me, I make my sexuality visible for all to see, however who is paying attention?

Speaking of attention and getting laid:

Yesterday, some butt munch noticed my e-mail was posted in my blog "DEAR SENATOR CLINTON" and he decided to contact me. As usual, I gave the sucker a run for his money. As a brain was lacking, he was sexually chasing his tail. When I tired of his stupidity (a whole two minutes), he was deleted and blocked.

ATTENTION MEN:
If you are looking to get anywhere with a woman who has a mind, do be more creative than to ask questions like:

What are you wearing?
Do you wanna fuck?
Can I see you on cam?

Had that moron read my letter to Clinton he would have seen past my hotmail addy and glimpsed my persona. I guess his dim witted mind could not comprehend the data so he skipped it.

All in all, I must congratulate him on being the first to bite the bait. That addy was put there on purpose for such a fishing expedition as I wanted to see who would see it and act upon it. There is rhyme to my reason and method to my madness.

Let's see who else will show up on my doorstep and let's see how many leave intact. Do I have a heart? Of course I do. However, I have no tolerance for individuals who have the ability to acquire knowledge and use it and yet do not do so. There! That is off my chest.

BTW, two pages have been completed on my master's proposal. Weeeeee I am happy as I am getting there. ~ June 23, 2006

Great Writers of Myspace

Kudos go out to all friends on MYSPACE who are writers. I can't thank you enough for creating the lovely pictures you do.

Readers who fail to put themselves into your work are truly missing something exceptional. It is okay if they are totally out of the ball park with a work. Perhaps they do not intertwine or interpret your work, correctly, however, a feeling elicited is a feeling had. You will find feeling reflective in your comments. Know that you have stuck a home run at that point as those that thought about your work will comment accordingly, those that did not...won't.

What is life without commercials? Here is mine: PlEaSe ChEcK oUt My FrIeNdS aS tHeY aRe AbSoLuTeLy GrEaT! aDd ThEm AnD tAlK tO tHeM fReQuEnTlY! ThANk YoU! Do ShOp HeRe AgAiN!

BTW: My friends who are not writers still have excellent sites and they should be read. KNOW THEM! Don't just do an overview of the aesthetics...take a deep look and you will find humanity!

Are we having fun in toon town yet? ~ 6/19/06

Want Ad 6/18/06

WANT AD 6-18-06
SEEKING - INDIVIDUALS who are articulate with a background in History, Philosophy, Art, Politics, Psychology, Sociology. Science, Literature, Law, Criminal Justice, Computers, Life, Business, Economics, Freedom, Cooking, Activism, City Life, Strife, The Great Outdoors, Equality, Tolerance, Guidance, Reason, Critical Thinking, Analysis, Logic, Sexuality, Antiques, B&D/S&M, Music, Biking, Human Rights, Domination, Research, Social Consciousness and Reform, Justice, Humor, and Camping. Is this YOU?

If you fit the above requirements, please feel free to e-mail my here on MySpace. If you don't fit the requirements, feel free to inquire anyway as you just may be interesting.

Microsoft

In it's EXTREME effort to ensure that the customer is a recognized individual and that they are a recognized company, MICROSOFT will repeat your name and their name to the point of sickness.


Technical Specialist Prichart, although a lovely individual who likes the problem solving aspect of his job (I know this as I asked him what he likes about working for MICROSOFT.), was quite annoying with his CONSTANT repetition. After a couple of rounds, I said:

Look Prichart, I know you work for Microsoft and I know you know my name so let's cut the crap. I know they tell you to repeat, but honestly it does not make me feel important. Instead, it is annoying the hell out of me and it feels like you are talking down to me.

After the above was stated, I was referred to as ma'am. This was too damn funny! When the problem was finally resolved, Prichart forwarded my call to his supervisor who pulled the same crap. He too was told off.

In the end, I did rate MICROSOFT 10 on service, but suggested that they cease their annoying repetition of names. I think any individual can keep track of their name as well as that of MICROSOFT!

Satisfied but annoyed customer. ~ 6/16/06

Warfare in the Shower - CUMMING CLEAN

Expecting something cool can sometimes turn into something quite hot. For instance, maybe many of you take your shower for granted. A scrub-a-dub-dub without three men in a tub. Take your beloved shower and turn it into a tool of power. BTW, if you do this experiment, make sure that you have adequate time (take an extra 1/2 hour) as you will find this a cleansing experience. Please envision this:

You are lifting the shower-head from its resting place and staring into its dotted silver face wondering which level to go to. As you experiment, you will find that by turning the head on this dial-o-matic baby you can create a steady pulsating stream of wonderful warm water. Take this down a notch to lower regions and lavish yourself with water and imagination. Of course this brings about moans of pleasure, strong multiple-orgasm contractions, and an empty hot water tank. You are going to love it! Satisfaction guaranteed. Please DO TRY this at home by yourself or with a friend(s). This may be done elsewhere as well as long as the head is removable and has dial-up! - 6/15/06

The Graduate

I always wanted to share information about the school from which I graduated. To me, Wikipedia sums it all up in a nutshell. Please do check out Goddard as it is a fine institution of great learning as they ALLOW freedom of thought. You can visit Goddard at: http://www.goddard.edu/

That which is strived for CAN and WILL be OBTAINED by those who reach.... ~ Arachne

Goddard College is a private college located in Plainfield, Vermont that grants BA and MA and MFA degrees. It uses a self-directed, mentored system of intensive residencies in Plainfield or Port Townsend, Washington. Residencies require the student's attendance every six months for approximately nine days, during which the student engages in a variety of activities and lectures from the early morning until quite late in the evening.

For many years, Goddard College had an onsite bachelor's degree program, but this was disbanded in 2002. Since then, the BA is also a limited residency program.

Although governance of the college has always been communitarian, Dr. Mark Schulman has been its president since 2003. The history of Goddard has been tumultuous, like many Free Schools (SEE: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Free_school) practicing the pedagogical theories of educators like John Dewey. Though many free schools have ceased to exist, Goddard remains alive, well, and unusual, still promoting education as a process of self-discovery in which the learner is firmly in charge. Accordingly, while Goddard is not for everyone, it has been, and continues to be, a home for creative, persistent, and self-directed students.

Goddard is also home to a public radio station that serves central Vermont, WGDR, 91.1 FM.

Famous graduates or former students of the school include actor William H. Macy; writer and director David Mamet; writer Piers Anthony; free jazz saxophonist Archie Shepp; Trey Anastasio, Jon Fishman, and Page McConnell of the improvisational rock band Phish; cartoonist Larry Feign (creator of the comic strip The World of Lily Wong); and jailed journalist and political activist Mumia Abu-Jamal.

During the late 1960s and early 1970s, Goddard College was a mecca for politically astute, highly intelligent students. The students at Goddard were among the most active and influential students to organize and speak out in opposition to the Vietnam War.

Wikipedia Addy: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Goddard_College

LITTLE NOTE: Does anyone remember ABBIE HOFFMAN the radical? His hideout was GODDARD! You may ask if I am a REBEL and I will tell you: YES ~ Arachne - 6/15/05

Inspiration for Reason

EDITED as original post was on June 14.

This post is meant to provoke thought about what one can achieve if one can reason and aspire within him/herself. Bear in mind that I do not support the all the methods used to obtain power by those individuals who are quoted. However, their words do promote power of self rule which can be accomplished through positive thinking. ~ Arachne

I am in the back seat of the car jumping up and down with anticipation of getting there wherever there might me. - Arachne - Inspired by an old owl!

While looking up some words I had laying around, I came upon the most beautiful site. Being a sharing person, I want to share these words of inspiration. Hopefully, one or two will hit your heart. <3

Vi Veri Vniversum Vivus Vici "By the force of truth, I, while living, have conquered the Universe" -- Crowley's motto as a Master of the Temple.
Meanwhile, I want to know EVERYTHING, and cannot imagine any of our intellectual descendants being satisfied with anything less. Compared to them, I'll wager, my most extreme lusts for understanding are paltry indeed. That's why they'll take over the universe, and almost desperately make copies of themselves and coerce all matter to support calculation---and MORE than mere calculation: wonderful wonderful wonderful experience. -- Lee Corbin

I would rather be ashes than dust! I would rather that my spark should burn out in a brilliant blaze than it should be stifled by dry-rot. I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in magnificent glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet. The function of man is to live, not to exist. I shall not waste my days trying to prolong them. I shall use my time. -- Jack London

Ah, Love! could thou and I with Fate conspire

To grasp this sorry Scheme of Things entire,
Would not we shatter it to bits -- and then
Re-mould it nearer to the Heart's Desire! -- Omar Khayyam, The Rubaiyat, Edward J. FitzGerald transl

Greek myths are heroic, noble and tragic; but the American Dream is heroic, comical, and uplifting. Americans are a people in whom overweening ambition is rewarded, not punished. The Wright Brothers did not have their wings melt when they flew too high. Perhaps their wings were more soundly built than those of Icarus. -- John C. Wright

Transire suum pectus mundoque potiri "To transcend one's spirit and to take hold of (to master) the world." -- the Fields medal

But should the domain of man appear small, pathetic and full of strife, in contrast with the preceding remote vastness? Of all people, Beethoven must have known with terrible immediacy the human mind's need for heroism if it is to face the staggering fact of its own creation.

It can truly be said that the Ninth is the product of an imagination possible to few at first hand, but, through them, available to many. Such creative power can produce reactions of exaltation and despair. The latter is a common romantic response, but the former is more realistic in its realization that man is the only being that can sustain such feats. And even if the creative impulse reaches self-defeating limits, it is itself as marvelous as the infinities that defeat it. But defeat can lead to despair, and here the highest type of heroism must be summoned: when man reels from the impact of his own imagination, let him wonder at the very powers with which he is able to stagger himself! Beethoven says in effect: The visions of the first two movements seem to reduce man to the size of a microbe; but a man conceived them -- so let us all rejoice in our own potentialities." -- Robert Simpson

At the Village Pizza shop, as they were sitting down to consume a pepperoni, Dorothy asked Jim, "So what other inventions are you working on?" Jim replied, "I've got a new idea, but it's really evolutionary. Literally REVOLUTIONARY." "Okay, Jim, which government are you planning to overthrow?," she asked, playing along. "All of them," answered Jim. -- Jim Bell, Assassination Politics

The distance between insanity and genius is measured only by success. --Elliot Carver

Some people call it megalomania, I call it healthy self-esteem. discwuzit@yahoo.comdrashner1

I remember when I first learned the word "omniscient". I thought that was a reasonable goal to aim for. Samatha Atkins

All we have to dare to do is throw away the old and difficult and embrace what's new and difficult and wonderful! ~ White Mars, Brian Aldiss and Roger Penrose

Our own grandchildren may demonstrate that--sometimes--Gigantic is Beautiful. -- Arthur C. Clarke

John F. Kennedy, speech at The American University, Washington, D.C., June 10, 1963: "Our problems are man-made, therefore they may be solved by man. And man can be as big as he wants. No problem of human destiny is beyond human beings."

Don't try to be rich, try to be God. -- Thomas Scott Painter

No one can predict to what heights you can soar.

Even you will not know until you spread your wings.

Our aspirations are our possibilities. "A human being should be able to change a diaper, plan an invasion, butcher a hog, conn a ship, design a building, write a sonnet, balance accounts, build a wall, set a bone, comfort the dying, take orders, give orders, cooperate, act alone, solve equations, analyze a new problem, pitch manure, program a computer, cook a tasty meal, fight efficiently, die gallantly. Specialization is for insects." - - R.A. Heinlein

People always find it easier to be a result of the past rather than a cause of the future. "History will be kind to me, for I intend to write it." - - Sir Winston Churchill

Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great." -Mark Twain

To make a great dream come true, you must first have a great dream. --Dr. Hans Selye

We move because we hate the idea of standing still. We create because we want something new in our life. We take the next step because we want to rise above. This is our mission, this is our passion. --Daewoo

Unless you try to do something beyond what you have mastered, you will never grow. ~ C.R. Lawton ~

I am responsible only to God and history. --Francisco Franco

We're mortal. which is to say, we're ignorant, stupid, and sinful - but those are only handicaps. Our pride is that nevertheless, now and then, we do our best. A few times we succeed. What more dare we ask for? --Ensign Flandry

Mediocrity is not an option! -Alonzo The Great

Perfection is our goal. Excellence will be tolerated. - TQM Motto from the International Association of Business Communication

The childhood shows the man As morning shows the day. Be famous then By wisdom; as thy empire must extend, So let extend thy mind o'er all the world. ~ John Milton, Paradise Regained

Your attitude determines your altitude.

You and I - we're dedicated to being better than the "average Joe." We're dedicated to constant improvement. The Japanese call this "Kaizen." In more ways than one, this is what bodybuilding is all about: always moving forward. -- Bill Phillips, Muscle Media

"...no matter how far we go into the future, there will always be new things happening, new technologies coming in, new worlds to explore, a constantly expanding domain of life, consciousness, and memory"

"I think I have shown that there are good scientific reasons for taking seriously the possibility that life and intelligence can succeed in molding this universe of ours to their own purposes." --Freeman Dyson

You cannot achieve the impossible without attempting the absurd.

"Your ambitions are bigger than life" "Of course. They must be. They encompass it." Bruce Sterling, Schismatrix

``We're always playing God. Even curing disease is playing God -- it's interfering with nature. We've been playing God since we invented the plow.'' --Jeffrey Reiman, philosophy professor, American University.

Filosoferna har nojt sig med att forklara varlden pa olika satt. Uppgiften ar att forandra den. --Karl Marx

Our destiny changes with our thought; we shall become what we wish to become, do what we wish to do, when our habitual thought corresponds with our desire. -- Orison S. Marder

There is no chance, no destiny, no fate, that can circumvent or hinder or control the firm resolve of a determined soul. -- From The Poem "Will" By Ella Wheeler Wilcox

If you can dream it, you can do it. -- Walt Disney

Nothing is too high for the daring of mortals: we storm heaven itself in our folly. -- Horace (65-8 B.C.)

Sikta mot stjärnorna, s hamnar du i alla fall n gon stans där emellan

"Where there is no vision, the people perish." --Proverbs 29:18

Too low they build, who build beneath the stars.

"All men dream: but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act out their dream with open eyes, to make it possible." --T.E. Lawrence, Seven Pillars of Wisdom

It is difficult to say what is impossible, for the dreams of yesterday are the hopes of today, and the realities of tomorrow. Far better is it to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs, even though checkered by failure...than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy much nor suffer much, because they live in a gray twilight that knows not victory nor defeat. -- Theodore Roosevelt

The price to be paid for certainty of vision is the compulsion, or sense of cosmic obligation, to translate vision into action and share it with others. -- T. Kun

"Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice. It is not something to be worked for, but rather something to be achieved." -- William Jennings Bryant

"Here's to the future to the dreams of youth It's not much I'm asking if you want the truth I want it all I want it all and I want it NOW!" "I want it all", Queen

"I am content, but I can never be fulfilled. No living creature ever can be; and that is the real miracle of life." Demeter Mother, "Harvest of Stars" -- by Poul Anderson

THIS IS THE CREDITED SITE: http://www.nada.kth.se/~asa/Quotes/ambition

Listening to THE REASON by Hoobastank

I am not a perfect person - There’s many things I wish I didn’t do, But I continue learning - I never meant to do those things to you - And so I have to say before I go...That I just want you to know - I found a reason for me - To change you while you still be - A reason to start over new - And the reason is you... Hoobastank    ~ 6/15/06

What Shall I Call This One

Pointy heads pointing fingers
Lying neath deception
Crooked and twisted spews are writ
Carried with precision
Directly aimed towards targets
Unknowing
Know
Break the digit that wages
Nay sever it
Lest it be used again - 6/13/06

Write and Right

You supposedly have RIGHTS and FREEDOMS (i.e. speech). Is this correct?
WRITE is an OLD ENGLISH word whose derivative is the LATIN core writ. Writ is a form of written command from a court or legal authority requiring or denying an act.

RIGHT that which you supposedly have. Core is LATIN rectus does this not sound like rectum which terminates at the anus? Rectum is a derivative of rectus.

Are they making an ass out of you?

We all have ass holes don't we? However, where is your freedom! What shit are they spewing?
Demand writ of habeas corpus of those that have caused much distress. ~ 6/13/06

Dear Mr. Grim Reaper:

Dear Mr. Grim Reaper:
 I see thee lurking over my shoulder
Thy sockets are void
Yet expansive
As are the masses
Aye, thou'st hold your sickle steadfast and true
And come for us in clarity
Tis this not the best time for thee to strike?
Tis known that thou come for us all
Yea, there will be those providing thee with backlash
Aye, putting up the fight of their lives
Thy job may be divided
Those that have the sense to revolt
Will do so
Voiding thee of thy mask 
Thou shalt not have grand authority - 6/13/06

Mighty Be Thy Sword

Mighty be thy sword of justice
Strike swift with aim
Let not tendons lie
But sever in it's entirety
Tis naught to dangle
By a thread
That which serves no purpose
Save for destruction
Callous this may be
Look at thy hands
Be they calloused?
Look at thy heart
Has it been hardened?
Not solidified entirely
As thou dost see strife
And relate well
Will thou see justice?
Alas, this question remains
In the sword bearer's hand - 6/11/06

What's in a Name

We have the corps do we not? Those that go to war. Look at the derivative of corps (pronounced CORES as in Marine Corps).

It's base word in Latin is corpus or body. Now look at the word corpse. It too has the base word corpus and it too is a body (human): a dead human body.

Have fun with the word game! - 6/9/06

I AM

I am north and south
I am young yet I am old
I am native yet not
I am woman (with balls - therefore)
I am man
I am mother (who acted as father)
I am poor, but rich in thought
I am support yet I go unsupported
I am unified within myself
I am knowledgeable and I share
I am truth yet I am lies to greater bodies
I am strong yet I am weak
I am the fighter in the face of adversity
I am open yet you do not see
I am but a picture.... 6/8/06

The Eyes

That which is reflective and all knowing
Lies pasted beneath folds
Which bear only a glimmer of the actual light
Nay tis shadow that thou dost see
As that is what is sought and thus gained
If need be
Rip thy flesh open
Necessity may call for it
Let thy charged orbits explore that which is obvious
Then delve into that which is NOT - 6/8/06

Who the Hell Out There...

Who the hell out there is really paying attention? Could I say anything to you and would you take it as GOSPEL? As FACT? Some of you are as you are reading, correcting, and/or verifying. I give KUDOS to you that are CORRECTING, INQUIRING, INQUISITIVE, and RESEARCHING!

You have my bloody blessings!
THE WIDOW - 6/6/06

You

YOU ARE THE VOICE
YOU ARE THE LIGHT
YOU ARE THE ONES UP IN THE NIGHT
YOU ARE THE WRITERS
YOU ARE THE READ
THEY ARE THE DARK
THEY ARE THE DEAD - 6/4/06

June 4, 2006

We all have it within ourselves to make change.  It is just a matter of determination!  Have the will and you WILL get it done.  Remember that EVERYTHING can be overcome.  Really it is just about wanting something bad enough to obtain it.

Weaponry of the mind does not consist of a formal education obtained or inflicted by an institution but more at a curious mind that devours volumes of information and verifies it as FACT.

The Forbidden Fruit - Second Post

June 7, 2006

UPDATE - LOOK AGAIN FOLKS! I am attempting to FILL in the BLANKS when time allows. However, you need to do the same as well! These are morsels. TAKE A BIG BITE!

THE FORBIDDEN FRUIT!

A drum roll please....

And the anti-christ is...

KNOWLEDGE! That which is and has been all but banned by the church since its rise to power. I cannot give a specific date. Dig backwards and find the future. If you really want to know you will investigate. Not to do so would leave you ignorant. Do you want to be ignorant? Look it up.

KNOW THAT FROM KILLING A CHICKEN - Once you chop the head off (the source of reason) the chicken will (attempt to) fly aimlessly about without a brain.

As I am not looking this shit up but remembering it from readings throughout the course of my life, there are no references. However, if you simply visit your local library or (if you choose) the internet, you will find the facts. You will also see how everything is WOVEN so nicely together that it almost forms a cardigan.

In order to squash NEW IDEAS and OPINIONS, he/they have made all sorts of efforts to deaden the source of reason through integration and fear. This can be seen throughout the history of western Europe...go back...go way back..

Then come home again and look around..

In their efforts to control the uneducated masses (as only the wealthy were educated and thus granted this right to limited information - this is happening again as we stir), the governments incorporated religion as a method to promulgate power through the use of FEAR:

SUCKER you're going to BURN in HELL if you do not do/say/believe as we do.

SUCKER you are going to live on the streets unless you kiss OUR royal ass. Wait! You almost are living in the streets. Those of you who have yet to establish yourself or those of you that have established yourselves you know the pitch...the sound of your own grief as you strive to stay afloat.

I can't say for sure who is holding whose hand within the game, however, I believe that they are playing ring-around the rosy. I am sure most of you know the story behind that one! Please don't miss out on this one as I used to sing it to my daughter as I told her the story of the song. (THE SONG IS ABOUT BLACK DEATH - THE PLAGUE.) The ring surrounds the rosy spot on the flesh (this is the DISEASE). Pocket full of posies - are the flowers that were carried to ward of the smell of death. The posy(ies) was/were put over their noses. Ashes, Ashes is the burning of the bodies - We all fall down - Is DEATH. It spooked my daughter out.

The masses died for wars which were preached in their native tongue but whose services were held in LATIN. That is why I find the language interesting as it can be used to camouflage or open a word.

Both LATIN and GREEK were used to create their modern languages. Look at the root word as by doing so you will know the base of most given words. Look at the development of the romance languages and of the UNIVERSAL English (save for Quebec) who have language police. That is right they police the language (as does the boss OTTAWA). BTW, there is a UNIVERSAL language that is written in a phonetic alphabet (*IPA). I know this as I have studied it in private university and still have the book. In order to pass the MANDATORY class, you must write a paper using this PHONETIC alphabet. If you know the sound of the language, you can reproduce it and communicate with others within the NETWORK.

*UNICODE? More like the International Phonetic Alphabet.

* UPDATE (July 26, 2007) - Pish! See what it looks like. Imagine, I had to know this mandatory script. My text book is "SPEAKING CLEARLY: Improving Voice and Diction" (4th Ed.) by Jeffrey C. Hahner, Martin A. Sokoloff, and Sandra L. Salisch. I AM NOT FULL OF SHIT!!! Never happen!

http://www2.arts.gla.ac.uk/IPA/ipachart.html
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/International_Phonetic_Alphabet

The sites show translations, but it does not provide you with the linguist code that is behind it based on SOUND = PHONICS (see above). Get hooked on phonics! Then learn the code.

http://www.unicode.org/press/pr-udhr.html
http://www.unicode.org/udhr/
http://www.unicode.org/press/pr-udhr.html = Mountain View, CA, July 2, 2007 -- The Unicode® Consortium announces a new project to make the United Nation's Universal Declaration of Human Rights available on the web, in as many languages as possible, using the power of Unicode.
Unicode is ideally suited for this project because it is the universal character set, able to represent all languages of the world.

The initial collection for the UDHR in Unicode project now contains more than 300 languages from Abkhaz to Zulu. For each language, the text of the UDHR is made available in the following Unicode-based formats: XML, plain text, HTML, and PDF. There are also links to resources for the languages, such as dictionaries and grammars.

Blah, blah, blah...

You will see that I am reiterating. ~ Maggie ~ 7/18/07 @ 7:12 a.m. I just noticed that this post was originally written on 06/03/06 = 9/6 Yin/Yang OR +/- -/+.

Unfortunately, the church has a long standing order and has therefore left a residue on the people and countries it has affected. Thus the sheep are in tow and they are unaware of (the) history. Look around you as history is repeating itself like a bad roast beef sandwich. I am sure you ingested that.

Open an actual book instead of virtual one. Does anyone remember what a hard cover and paperback are? It feels like I am trying to tell you of 45's in a CD/DVD playing world. Does anyone know what a Victrola is? No?

This shit is not being looked up by me, but those of you are stricken by curiosity will actually look up what I am telling you. Those of you that are sicken will be enlightened with KNOWLEDGE. Regardless of how minimal it may seem, it is still knowledge gained and based on fact.

If curiosity surrounds you, get informed and get LOADED! Don't be afraid to ask questions. Feel free to answer any or add to any questions.

INTRODUCING THE AGE OF REASON:

CREATION OF LAW (What are the founding principles? Who founded it and why? Damn it! Find out the base and aim for the head!)

NEWTON (Where does gravity dwell and what are its forces? Galileo was his inspiration was he not?)

THE HUMAN BODY (What are the components? How is it similar to that of the earth's? What is our core component?)

GRAYS ANATOMY (The artists/doctors of days gone by used to use cadevors to learn and hone their skills - look at the workmanship of Michealangelo Buonarroti's Cysteine Chappel. Look at the muscle tone of the bodies. Hey, did he ever get paid for his years of work? Ask the POPE!)

ARCHITECTURE (View Romanesque, Gothic, and Baroque. See where religion, literature, and art was during those periods and you will know the mind set.)

LITERATURE - See above

ART (of all kinds - sign of the times - See above)

LAW (like all good things is based in LATIN)

THE BANKING SYSTEM (Who owns THE BANK OF AMERICA? What are it's roots? Where did the name of America come from? Try Amerigo Vespucci.)

ACCOUNTING (What comes first the debit or credit and why you should know?)

FRATERNITIES (Greek Letters)

SECRET SOCIETIES (If they are so secret why do we know of them and their rituals? Are we supposed to?)

QUEEN VICTORIA (Was her grand(son) Jack the Ripper...who knows the theories behind these murders? Who performed them? Who covered it up if in fact it was covered up? Could the RIPPER have been the Queen's doctor or perhaps some immigrant? BTW, Czar Nicholas (RUSSIA) was a relative.)

HOBBS -

PLOLEMY - ((Astronomy) We sit under the same night sky but we do we not see the same view of the stars? Why?)

DESCARTES (Cogito ergo sum - he was hiding too. Guess why?)

SPINOSA

PAINE - (Have you formed your reason?)

HUME

D'HOLBACH (Atheist?)

BERKELEY

KNIGHTS TEMPLAR (since it's inception to supposed death. Which pope made the order? Do you take Urban orders?)

POPES (start with the first and work your way up-ward)

KINGS OF EUROPE (as they are the MAJOR influence and the conqueror of nations/lands)

HITLER ((Nazi) was a Christian BTW - HE WAS A PROTESTANT following the teachings of LUTHER!)

MUSSOLINI (Fascist)

STALIN (Communist)

LENIN (Revolutionary - what was the original agenda?)

TROTSKY

BRINTON

BECKER

ANCIENT ROME - Empire and Republic

DARWIN (I don’t mean that it is right, I mean it needs exploring).

EXPLOITATION (Of EVERYONE'S rights!)

POLITICS

ETHICS

PHILOSOPHY

ORIGINS OF THAT WHICH WE CELEBRATE: Christmas and Easter and their symbolism - yeah get preggers and keep on giving. The tree was German and the date 25th of December was assigned to christ's birth by the ruler (who had a sun god holiday on that very day and a fertility god on Easter (accounting for the bunnies and eggs)). Didn't you ever wonder what started it up? Am I Eve offering you the apple yet again?

KENNEDY (Assassinated why? Do you know of his father's background and ties to organized crime? Can you believe that Lee Harvey Oswald killed him? Is the shot theory correct? Who shot Oswald? Why? What happened to Marilyn? Who was holding whose hand?

LINCOLN (Assassinated by John Wilkes Booth. Why?)

SOCIOLOGY (Social Psych - Discover why people do what they do. Learn manipulation methods. AVOID THEM!)

PSYCHOLOGY (Delve into the mind.)

SLAVERY (CIVIL WAR, BLACK SOLDIERS (first time), Jefferson had slaves and he was a president. Where were their rights based on the founding principles of FREEDOM! Was this life and LIBERTY? Hell no!)

SCIENCE (What happened to the early discoverers? Where they not labeled heretics by the church? Where some burned? Check it out! Had it not been for those discoveries you would not have what you have! Be GRATEFUL!)

KANT

COPERNICUS

RELIGION ( Bah humbug)

GAY/LESBIAN RIGHTS (Who says it is against nature just because it is against your nature? Pro-CREATION produces TAXPAYERS!)

ORIGINS (YOURS)

LABOR MOVEMENT(S)

CUBA (Castro, and no, not Castro Convertible. What were Castro's reasons for REVOLT? Who was getting fat in Cuba? Did you know that Canadians CAN go to Cuba?)

UNITED STATES of AMERICA

PUERTO RICO, MEXICO, HONDURAS, et al YOU ARE NOT LATIN (SPANISH) YOU ARE NATIVE! They have fooled you! Check you origins!

RUSSIA (Wasn't that your grand(son) on the throne Victoria...also I do not remember where in line he sat...but he sat. Wasn't he and his family killed?)

GERMANY (They were all on one hand - see affiliations. Yeah all y'all were related.)

PERSIA

ERASMUS

VOLTAIRE (What was his real name?)

BRAHE

KEPLER (Astronomy's helper)

GALILEO (He CRAWLED BECAUSE OF THE CHURCH, but never gave up. He inspired NEWTON. WE DO HAVE GRAVITY!)

BACON

PROPAGANDA (Methods and issues. These suckers are aimed at your head everyday and yet you let them BLAST you!)

EXPERIMENTATION (Why you should do it! Hell do it often. Live by "what would happen if....")

ISRAEL - (HEY USA why go after IRAQ when CANADIAN oil is so much closer and their dollar is less than the US dollar...for now.)

EURO DOLLAR (Currency in general. Check and see who is on top. Which currency is worth more?)

STOCK MARKET CRASHES (WHERE, WHEN, WHY, WHO, WHAT, and HOW? Check the conditions of the time!)

WARS (All of them.)

AFRICA (The dark continent...start at the beginning.)

IRAQ (Look for natural resources. DAMN there is OIL!!!!! Land needs to be conquered!)

IRAN (MORE OIL!!!)

CANADA (Why does she just sit there?)

CIVIL WAR(S) (They were not that civil!)

REVOLUTION(S) (All of them...check for a THEME!)

ENVIRONMENT - OZONE HOLE - RAINFOREST

UNIONS (Hey, where the hell is HOFFA? Hoffa started with good intentions. Why is all corrupt? Could MONEY and POWER be a factor? Hey who was in power at the time? KENNEDY!! WHO put him there? Who was the ATTORNEY GENERAL? Do you smell nepotism?)

ORIGIN of the INTERNET (Original design and uses. Check US Department of Defense under ARPA. Who knows what ASCII is?)

DOS (You windows friendly people - you used to have to know the CODE.)

VR (VOICE RECOGNITION - not virtual reality - Machine over man. You have it now. Call any company and TRY to talk to a HUMAN! The machine KNOWS your voice and can DIRECT your call!)

INDIGENOUS RIGHTS - (What did the Natives know that we do not?)

CIVIL LIBERTIES (Is it in fact civil??)

SUFFRAGE

WOMEN'S RIGHTS (Do women really have equality? Hell no! Men in the same position get more money, yet for the most part SINGLE MOMS are out there working and making less money. It is STILL believed that the MAN is the HEAD of the household in the OLD BOY system. This is not a fact jack! Man no longer heads the household!)

MARTIN LUTHER KING JR. (Does this sound like the 60's? Has the loss of life in FACT brought about total SOCIAL acceptance? NO. We still do not have equality).

MALCOLM X - See NEW (AMSTERDAM (Ave)) in Harlem!

MARTIN LUTHER (See Protestantism. Hell, see BUSH's affiliation!)

THE HOLY BIBLE (What good are rules if you break them when they suit and you have a built in check system for the problem...it is okay my son died for you sins so you really don't have to abide. Break as many as you want you will be forgiven.)

THE PRINTING PRESS (Come on people - pick up the beat.)

CHARLIE MANSON - (His followers thought he was christ.)

KKK - WHAT TO THEY BURN??? IN WHOSE NAME!!!

STORMFRONT.ORG (see Don Black - In the past ten years, this site has grown from rinky dink to...WELL CHECK IT OUT! See what the good people are spewing!)

DEMONSTRATION(S)/PROTEST(S)

SERIAL MURDER(ERS)

ASSIGNATIONS THROUGHOUT HISTORY - (Who was targeted and why?)

GEORGE WASHINGTON (First President of the United States of America. He was a FREE MASON!)

THOMAS JEFFERSON (Owned Slaves!)

HELL OUR FOUNDING FATHERS (What was the religious affiliation and how did they apply it as they would have had to as it was ingrained in their persona like code. Regardless of social affiliation or lack thereof, there was an infrastructure beneath the law). No matter how you slice it you cannot divide the being as a base will always exist to work from.)

JACOB REIIS - HOW THE OTHER HALF LIVES (Conditions in the 1800's) (It is a BOOK))

NYSE & NASDAQ (9/11 would it not have been more effective to blow up these two instead of two planes and I think it was 7 buildings. This is the heart of the economy and have been more effective to hit the HEART of the MONEY instead of the heart of the people? This would have created a major impact on our economy! Wait that was the main idea...rile the people. Hell who would fight for the STOCK MARKET? No one! Who would fight for the lives of those lost as an act of terrorism? We all would. We have been suckered!)

BOOK BANNING/BURNING - First done by the church during the renaissance and then during the WWII. Upon Christendom, thy great book was only scribed for the scripts, monks, and wealthy. This is of course pre-printing press.

WITCH BURNING - Salem, Mass. against those who used herbs to heal, who were mentally ill, or just needed removal. The mania of the times called for acts of violence against those (healing - using that which god supposedly gave us (reason) and what was created in nature - herbs) who were considered using witchcraft.

SPANISH INQUISITION - The torture and/or death of the non-believer into believing or at least laying oath to the love of christ.

KILLING IN THE NAME OF GOD (even though thou shalt not kill) Hey, but you are not supposed to read the bible. Wait you didn’t. This comes by way of mouth. Who told who what!

A HERETIC must have invented the PRINTING PRESS to massively produce the BIBLE! Oh boy! That is a double edged sword. On one hand you have raised the awareness of the masses so that they know that the Vatican is not abiding by the book. Then on the other hand you have those that just hold the book and listen to the WORD of those who preach/or guide them through the righteousness of it. At least they see the book. Did this not give rise to PROTESTANTISM? What are it's offshoots?

Nah this will not be had by the RCC, no books there! However, they are in other churches and there are different versions. Which version is correct? Who shall be believed? Let us run around pointing fingers at each other. Can’t you hear the he hear the chord? Nah nah I am better than you are!.

We now have the INTERNET which is a forum of freedom of speech for the worlds populous. Theorists claim that (the omnipresent) HE/THEY have tried to own the internet. Have he/they and do(es) he/they? Who REALLY possess it? Try some BIG PLAYER COMPANIES! Start with AT &T. Who created it? USDOD ARPANET.

AGE OF REASON: Why did god have Giordano Bruno burned at the stake? Did he find out something that he should not have? Did it wake something in the masses that the church was afraid of?

IDOLATRY - Was that a statue you were praying to? You are not supposed to and you shall not worship graven images nor shall you put other gods before me. Does this mean there were others? I am a jealous god. Is that not what the good book says. Hell, the dollar is GOD and we all worship!

People are too narrow in their scope of knowledge as they seek the power of the almighty dollar or self fulfillment as required by state...that of existence for taxation purposes. As it is necessary to survive and capitalism does reign supreme, people categorically specialize thereby ignoring all else that could be learned. Books are a bore and T.V. rules is that not the way of things? Curiosity is lacking. As direct result the people wear blinders and experience tunnel vision. They are led about by the nose not knowing where they head. The visible signs are all around only no one is looking.

Maybe it is my childish curiosity that has kept me going the never-ending quest for truth and knowledge. Would I then be considered an EVE who is offering the apple? Was that not the first SIN? DO NOT EDUCATE YOURSELF OR ARM YOURSELF WITH KNOWLEDGE...just BELIEVE.

Bush has seen to it to tax education savings and to tax youth savings. Tell me, will HE/THEY tax our blood and sweat next? How far with this go? Will no one stand up against church and state?
Government personnel offices are closed to the public

Key Span has the monopoly of gas and has closed its personnel doors to the public

What is happening? Does anyone have a band-aid for this severed arm? I am leaving this for now. I hope you are thinking, reading, and adding... Originally written 6/3/06

Listening to SLAVES by BAD RELIGION 80 - 85...

Comments Not Seen

Although comments are placed on Myspace and on Myspace blogs, one must wonder about that which is not visible...that which goes on without detection to the general public. This is where the true exchanges lie. This is a course for which there is a snowball effect. Realize this and recognize it. It is more at what is said for NOT everyone to see. Although it may be shared with interested parties of like minds. - 5/31/06

BUSH NOTE:

It is not only BUSH that needs to be removed. As Lincoln said A GOVERNMENT OF THE PEOPLE BY THE PEOPLE FOR THE PEOPLE. This is not happening. Government is not working for the people at any level. It is/they are working for themselves. This has been going on for sometime now. The rich are getting richer and the poor are getting poorer. Just look at the history of the countries that experienced revolution (including the United States). You will see the trend. It has once again formed and thus must be removed. The question is HOW and by WHOM?

Being the lone individual with an opinion, I cannot do more than voice my opinion and get the opinions of my friends. I have been placing feelers out in person and on the net and from what I have gathered, people are ready for change.

Another point to be made is that originally there was supposed to be a separation of church and state. If that had really occurred would our money say "IN GOD WE TRUST." BAD RELIGION had it right when they said VOICE OF GOD IS GOVERNMENT! Let us not be fooled. - 5/30/06

NY History

Who knows NY history? I am looking for info on a fire around the turn of the century where women were locked in *.Shirt Factory. This changed the course of working conditions. Does anyone remember the year or the factory's full name? I remember that they burned and they jumped. That is tragic. Listening to Flogging Molly's "FACTORY GIRLS" just gives me that image. The influx of immigrants into NY and their demise in order to succeed. Someone help me. I give brownie points! JK of course. They look like Gibson Girls...does this help? 5/27/06

ON WINGS OF CHICKENS

On Wings of Chickens  (a/k/a Gallus gallus domesticus)
Men fly headless, hopeless, and helpless into women.
I have come to the realization that they are merely shadflies squashed against the windshield
They are hooked by the headlights
My what traffic it creates
Be they men or mice?
Nay!  They be chickens. 
At first they appear featherless, then suddenly chicken skin appears.
Before you have time to take notice, a feather or two sprouts.
These are the rulers?  The patriarchs?  LMFAO
You have got to be kidding me! 
The pickings of men with balls and/or backbone seem to be more and more scarce. -  5/26/06
Whoever said any cock'l do, must have been a ho!

Painting by Rico Fornesca.