Everyday, I pace outside the window and long for this granddaddy of a lollipop. This little kid wants the big beautiful twist lollipop that dangles in the window. Its bright colors and twisted candy look scream my name and although I stare at it and hunger for it, I don't know how to get it. Angrily, I stomp my feet in frustration like a spoiled little brat and curse my own longing. With my face pressed against the window, I search my pockets and pull them outward only to retrieve a penny and then to a sport a set of rabbit ears. What the hell can rabbit ears do? How will a penny allow me to get at this lollipop whose cost might as well be a million dollars? Pacing outside the shop, all the other confections are ignored. Sure I see all the others, however, I want to beautiful lollipop that dangles almost in front of my face. Only a tiny bit of glass separates me from it yet it might as well be housed in Fort Knox.
If I could get at my desire, would it be a slow and long lick so that I can truly enjoy it or would I hungrily eat it up like biting into a Tootsie Pop to get to the center? I don't fucking know. ~ 2/05/06 @ 9:53 a.m.
* Just so you know, I am not really talking about a lollipop. Also, the lollipop that I am trying to describe is not your everyday regular lollipop. This one is made with a long strip of colorful candy (yellow, blue, red, orange, and green) that is wound and placed on a stick. If you were to look at it, it would look like a spiral laid flat or a multicolored bull’s eye. If you have ever seen a rag rug, it is kind of the same with the mixed colors and spiral design. In other words, this confection is complex in design and color whereas most lollipops are plain.
Miracle: I actually knocked myself out without xanax last night. I found la la land.
