When A Guilty Bitch Worries...

BTW, THIS IS WHAT I forgive, but I can’t forget~ (Post of May 25, 2011) has come down to.  Got it?  Good.

As Festival is around the corner, the bitch started to worry. Only a guilty bitch would worry about having her ass kicked and that is why she asked my guy if I was going to beat the shit out of her or what. Of course he told me about her fear so I wrote to her to address her concern. If you read her well, you will note that she states she WILL be at the festival and later she changes it to IF. BTW, this is not Annie shithead, however, this one is also a snot cloth. Aren't they all? LMAO Me: Only guilty people worry. Right? ~ June 22 Her: you know what. this truly is and was between you and your partner. i have stayed completely away from him and the drama between the two of you and am more than willing to continue to do so. i'm sorry i ever got involved, no matter how briefly. i never intended harm or to get into a messy situation. i have been involved in many healthy and loving poly relationships over the years and didn't know how rough things were, or that for the first time in years and years i would end up being seen as the protaganist. i'm sorry. truly. i hope you two are in a better place. i will be at sirius this year. there are many friends i wish to see, it's been a home for me for well over a decade. i'm not coming there with any malicious intentions at all and i hope that we can avoid spending time at such a beautiful place in a state of conflict. if you need to confront me, i'd prefer it if we can go somewhere and do that privately and not make it into a huge community drama, but ultimately that is up to you. Me: IF you never intended anything, you would have respected my wishes as he relayed them to you. Sweet meat, you are only poly, but there was no amory and you know it. You just like to fuck what moves. Why don't you just admit to being a ho? He had told you I was against it. However, you being the peanut butter legs that you are, did what you did. Just stay the fuck out of my face. Got me? Cool. AND if you have any questions as to how I will react to you, you don't do a baby ass thing like ask him. You ask me. Later. Her: wow. got some anger problems? for some reason you see this all being my fault?? and none of this being your ****'s? you think he just laid out your desires and had no part in this shit? i didn't jump him and force him to do anything.. and we didn't do very much - by the way.. for all of 20 minutes of getting lost in a moment and then stopping ourselves .. - BECAUSE BOTH OF US FREAKED OUT AND DIDN'T WANT TO HURT YOU. not because we wanted to. I wish you could hear that. and stop blaming all of this on me. and no ****** i am not a HO .. luckily i know myself well enough .. but i am also not going to become your victim and the person you can blame entirely for shit between you and ****. i'm sorry i was attracted to him. initially to you both actually. i'm sorry that i was not as completely disciplined about my actions as i usually am that night. we went out drinking til 5am, and i did go sleep on the couch. but when those stupid people in the hallway started screaming at 6:30 in the morning, in my exhausted drunken state i went to sleep in ****'s room and should have stayed away from him when we were both pretty drunk.. for that you can blame me.. and fine ****** - i'll ask you. i just haven't been in touch with you in a long time. are you going to be at sirius? how would you like me to navigate being in that space with you? i'd like to know and as much as i can and the requests are rational i will try and be respectful if you would like to tell me. Me: **** was drunk? Is that what you are telling me? Do me a favor and verify because that is not my understanding. Also, what do you think happens when a woman jumps in a man's bed? Nothing? How old are you? Twelve? According to him, you sent a text asking if you could "play" to which he responded "yes." However, after talking to me, I said "no." This was supposed to be respected. If you think that I did not make him miserable, I did make him miserable. So you got your finger job and you offered a blow job (instead gave him a hand job). How sweet. Before your poly fuck friend ass decides to do something, ask both partners. Drunk is no excuse. As for angry, you're fucking straight I'm angry and have a reason. I will be at Sirius. Navigate by staying the hell away from me. If you want to get laid, look elsewhere. Ya know? Also, in regard to respect, you should have thought of RESPECT before you did what ya did. That is where I stand. Have respect and stay the hell out of my face. If dogs can be disciplined, so can you. Get some training. Why don't you pay a visit to The Heartless Bitches International - Poly People I Can Do Without. Maybe, just maybe you will learn something. http://www.heartless-bitches.com/rants/manipulator/polypeople.shtml Her: as hard as it is to hear all this, i just want to say you're right. you're just absolutely correct. i knew better and i knew we didn't have permission, i keep wanting to defend my own ethical high ground because i try to be a good person, but i wasn't and i have no defense. i really and truly didn't live up to my own standards and my part in all of this hurt people i really don't think deserve to be hurt. i am so sorry. i am going to leave this alone now and stay out of your way and ****'s. i'll do my best to give you space if i am at sirius. Me: Indeed you are guilty and that is why you worried about your hide. You KNEW you did not have my permission, but your selfish nature wanted to whore around not giving a shit as to the outcome. To me, you have no ethics and you are not a good person because your act of selfishness almost destroyed a relationship. I'll accept your sorry, but I still want your sorry ass as far from me as possible because I know how I am. IF you are at Sirius, avoid me as that is the best recommendation I can give you. BTW, fucking learn from your mistakes as you never know when you will be fucking with the wrong person. *I wonder IF she will show up. Snicker. ADDENDUM:  She never did show up.  Goodie.