Marriage????

Perhaps my brain or mode of thinking is off beat because I am thinking it would not be so bad to get married again.  Yeah, it does sound off the wall and bizarre, however, there was something to being married that I can’t quite put my finger on.  What the fuck was it?  I think I should mention that my marriage was shitty to the max, yet I endured it for 2 years and 2 weeks before I kicked his ass out and filed for divorce.  What kept me in the marriage as long as I was in it was that I thought that I had made my bed and thus must lie in it.  Never a harsh word to him did I utter despite the fact that he was a total useless ass.  Getting rid of him was real simple and I did not and have not missed him for one nanosecond from the time I threw him out.  Well then, what was the perk?  It surely was not sex as he was as useless as tits on a bull.  So, what could it have been?  I am sitting here scratching my head and ass wondering what selfish area within myself did it address?  For the life of me, I can’t think of what it was.  Maybe it was just the sharing aspect.  Then again, what the fuck did we share?  There were all those fake “I love you” statements that we both made yet I wonder if that had a part?  Nah.  I can’t say for sure what it was, but lunacy must be setting in as I think I would take a go at it again.  Yup.  I think I lost my marbles.  Someone please shoot me! ~ Maggie ~ March 31, 2010 @ 2:36 p.m. EST

Addendum: It could be that MAX is playing a sick April Fools joke on me.  Meh.