A Wish~

My love had told me that “if wishes were fishes, the world would be an ocean.”  However, if one does not wish and pursue their wish they will not get it.  Some wishes are beyond reason such as a wish to become an astronaut at this stage of life, but simple wishes are not out of the question.  I do not wish for luxury or material gain, but I do wish for change.  Change requires doing and going forward toward a goal.  Obstacles must be looked at as they will slow down processes, but will not stop them unless they are wished to be stopped.  In the grand scope of things, what I wish for is NOT impossible.  There is a maximum time line in mind, but through circumstance(s) the time line could either be longer or shorter.  It all depends on the variables.

Although I have previously stated that I am a selfish person, I shall reiterate: I am selfish.  Anything I do I do so because it pleases me.  If no pleasure is derived even from pain, well then, it serves me no justice. Selfish could be looked at in a negative fashion, but it is not.  If someone derived joy from doing something FOR YOU, they are being selfish as they are really doing for themselves.  Is this so bad?  Me thinks not, however, if anyone would like to argue the point, please do so.  Selfish is destructive when you self serve and harm others in the process.  You gain nothing at that point as what has served you now will bite you in the ass later.

There is a part of me that has another wish (yet again) to return to school.  A second bachelor’s degree is not out of the question, but a master’s degree in psychology is higher on the strata and would be much easier to obtain AND I could hang my shingle.  My absurd wish is for my Ph.D. in history, but I would have to do two years toward my second bachelors to even start the process.  Here lies a problem in time economics.  Starting with 100 percent of time resources, I am already at capacity.  Should I choose to return to academia I would have to give up certain things to free percentage points which would pull me away from my first goal.  There is also another issue here that I must consider: I have to watch where I fly.  Radar sucks as do time economic cost factors.  Oh well!  Focus and the first wish and perhaps the second wish will come to be at a later point in time. ~ Maggie ~ May 17, 2010 @ 3:36 p.m. EST