My Dark Side

As I sit back and sip my loathsome Perrier I long for flavored water...be it ever so holy. I desire that which is not readily available. Does that not always seem the way. I sit and stew in images of debauchery and relish the ideal visage upon me. Wicked in nature must be wicked in form. I think I shall throw myself into the pit and join the demons, vampires, zombies, sadists, and other predators. The taste of blood bears that of copper yet I shall not chew on a penny. Nay that is too simple.

What do I see crawling down my wall...a peaceful spider. Should I crush it with my finger or let it roam? I shall let it be as it bothers me not. Back to my thoughts.

My incisors are but human yet open to modification. This had been thought upon at great length as it would suit my nature as would the black contacts. Much research has been done on both sometime back. Again I wonder to this ponder. Strange you may think. I think not. Both are removable fixtures and can be worn when desired. I do so much like to play.

Know this, my colors are that of black and red. I take the widow much to myself and thus sport only those two colors. Never shall I be red alone. Black alone yes or mixed with red, but never red alone. My mind does grasp the fringes of darkness' skirt as that has been my way since I was 6. Maybe it is the darkness that drives my curiosity wild and ever curious I am. Age has not killed my child, but has made it wise and knowledgeable. I do not seek to destroy that which has made me. I seek to shake it's icy hand while I claw it's back filling my nails with flesh.

To say I am heartless would be an injustice. Darkness of heart has always loomed within and is thus part and parcel. Accept it or not. Tis just a part of me as are my eyes. I shall not pluck out my darkness as it offends me not.

I have evolved and will continue to do so.

Something I wrote many years ago:
Black heart spewing black blood through pulsing veins conjuring images of darkness. Vile contingencies lucis ferre dis humanus. ~ 4/27/06