Much to her dislike, she sits and stares off into the mirror looking past her own reflection as vanity does not become her. Had she bothered to view herself, she would have faced the frown lines made possible by timeless worry and the lines near her mouth indicating that she has smiled on more than one occasion. What is it then that she does not want to see? Is there something about her being that she does not like? She seems quite comfortable in her shell as she has worn it well.
Has her beauty been drained dry the harsh winds, intense heat, dirt of the day, and acid rain? The four elements of life have attacked and this bothers her not as it has made her a better person: a person she can live with. What bothers her most is that people read books from the outside first and then decide based on it’s cover if it is worth exploring. This is what she searches for past her reflection. She hopes that others will search past it as well. Call this an experiment to see if the superficial can be warded off and discarded like old clothes. The reality is that there is a possibility that she will be discarded like the rags of a beggar made rich. - 7/27/06
On men’s faces, character is added: on women’s faces it is a fading beauty.
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Monday, July 24, 2006
YOUR PORTRAIT
I stare into your portrait and wonder
A million thoughts
Engulfed with many visions
Real and surreal
Do you really exist?
Or does my mind play tricks on me?
Is reality subjective or objective?
Although I search deeply
The color of your eyes escape me
It is not so much that thoughts are fleeting,
So much as it has not come to clarity
Lips sweetly together
Looking to be kissed gently
Perhaps kiss back roughly
As I think about your voice
And it’s soothing sound
I am captured without a fight - 7/24/06
A million thoughts
Engulfed with many visions
Real and surreal
Do you really exist?
Or does my mind play tricks on me?
Is reality subjective or objective?
Although I search deeply
The color of your eyes escape me
It is not so much that thoughts are fleeting,
So much as it has not come to clarity
Lips sweetly together
Looking to be kissed gently
Perhaps kiss back roughly
As I think about your voice
And it’s soothing sound
I am captured without a fight - 7/24/06
Friday, July 21, 2006
Possibilities:
Desire is that which drives us to do great things. For this reason, I will go to any length to achieve my goal(s). A goal was within reach on three occasions, and on three occasions, I reacted rather than acted. Thus, I wonder what would have happened upon action? As I cannot turn back the hands of time, I know that my next move is to ACT. This is being worked on at the moment and as soon as possible, I will be doing exactly what my little heart desires. I will turn intent in to action.
It seems that I am in a bizarre situation, but also one that seems to be reminiscent of a great past love. It is reminiscent in the fact that I did not give up on him despite many issues. One issue that drove me away from my past love for good was his heroin use. I am not saying that a LOVE presently exists, however, an interest does lie and that interest is being greatly driven by a desire to KNOW.
Every negative possibility is looked at and then turned into a positive possibility. When I adjust myself accordingly, I can twist anything into being so. Look at yourselves. Have you meet people from Myspace and has it ALWAYS turned out good? Some will say yes, no, and yes and no. Those that say no, I say to you...LOOK AT WHAT YOU HAVE LEARNED from the experience. Knowledge gained at any level should be relished and appreciated as it adds to your being. Strength is built from the ground up. When you feel you are at your weakest point, you are actually at your strongest. How so? SURVIVAL! Your base instinct (or primal instinct) is to survive. As a result, you fight upon your weakness even if you are not aware of yourself doing so. If you are still here, you have survived that which has brought you down. Did it not add metal to your armor and make you stronger?
The adventure that I intend to make, come hell or high water, will serve two purposes.
1) My curiosity will be quenched at long last.
2) I will see if greater interest lies there.
As two people are involved, this is a two way street with two different sets of standards/values. What may be a standard/value to one, my not be a standard/value to the other. This pretty much goes for any relationship be it family, friend, or love.
With family and friends, physical attraction does not really come into play. It does come into play more so with love. As far as I am concerned, the mind is far more attractive than superficiality. Superficiality is just that...superficial. What happens then when the surface fades, what content of the package is now desirable? We all know that with age, accident(s), or illness(es) things do deteriorate and/or change. Therefore, when choosing a mate, is it not best to seek that which will still be available once the superficiality is morphed/changed? Isn’t depth better, i.e, contents?
Two people face possible acceptance/rejection. With acceptance on any level, there is harmony. Rejection is a bit different. How the rejection is handled is where negative possibilities can turn into positive possibilities. As common ground exists, there is a base to start with. The way I am viewing this, he will only be rejected if he is disrespectful. That is my standard/value.
As I cannot speak for him, I do not know what it is that will guide his evaluation of me. In the event I am rejected, for whatever reason, I have vowed to chalk it up to experience and have a good laugh...preferably with him. Also, I will have had the opportunity to travel and know another human being. Hey, maybe a long lasting friendship can evolve if nothing more. Those are the positive possibilities. Not too bad huh?
Again, as I can only speak for myself, anger and/or ill feelings will not exist. He is entitled to his own feelings and I will not force him to feel for me what he does not. This has to be a natural occurrence or it is doomed to failure.
When you go off on an adventure without expectations, you cannot be disappointed. - 7/21/06
It seems that I am in a bizarre situation, but also one that seems to be reminiscent of a great past love. It is reminiscent in the fact that I did not give up on him despite many issues. One issue that drove me away from my past love for good was his heroin use. I am not saying that a LOVE presently exists, however, an interest does lie and that interest is being greatly driven by a desire to KNOW.
Every negative possibility is looked at and then turned into a positive possibility. When I adjust myself accordingly, I can twist anything into being so. Look at yourselves. Have you meet people from Myspace and has it ALWAYS turned out good? Some will say yes, no, and yes and no. Those that say no, I say to you...LOOK AT WHAT YOU HAVE LEARNED from the experience. Knowledge gained at any level should be relished and appreciated as it adds to your being. Strength is built from the ground up. When you feel you are at your weakest point, you are actually at your strongest. How so? SURVIVAL! Your base instinct (or primal instinct) is to survive. As a result, you fight upon your weakness even if you are not aware of yourself doing so. If you are still here, you have survived that which has brought you down. Did it not add metal to your armor and make you stronger?
The adventure that I intend to make, come hell or high water, will serve two purposes.
1) My curiosity will be quenched at long last.
2) I will see if greater interest lies there.
As two people are involved, this is a two way street with two different sets of standards/values. What may be a standard/value to one, my not be a standard/value to the other. This pretty much goes for any relationship be it family, friend, or love.
With family and friends, physical attraction does not really come into play. It does come into play more so with love. As far as I am concerned, the mind is far more attractive than superficiality. Superficiality is just that...superficial. What happens then when the surface fades, what content of the package is now desirable? We all know that with age, accident(s), or illness(es) things do deteriorate and/or change. Therefore, when choosing a mate, is it not best to seek that which will still be available once the superficiality is morphed/changed? Isn’t depth better, i.e, contents?
Two people face possible acceptance/rejection. With acceptance on any level, there is harmony. Rejection is a bit different. How the rejection is handled is where negative possibilities can turn into positive possibilities. As common ground exists, there is a base to start with. The way I am viewing this, he will only be rejected if he is disrespectful. That is my standard/value.
As I cannot speak for him, I do not know what it is that will guide his evaluation of me. In the event I am rejected, for whatever reason, I have vowed to chalk it up to experience and have a good laugh...preferably with him. Also, I will have had the opportunity to travel and know another human being. Hey, maybe a long lasting friendship can evolve if nothing more. Those are the positive possibilities. Not too bad huh?
Again, as I can only speak for myself, anger and/or ill feelings will not exist. He is entitled to his own feelings and I will not force him to feel for me what he does not. This has to be a natural occurrence or it is doomed to failure.
When you go off on an adventure without expectations, you cannot be disappointed. - 7/21/06
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Creaming My Jeans
Being horny is an abundant feeling of mine which has no boundaries or time limitations. However, self-satisfaction is getting old and this energizer bunny is damn tired of it. That being the case, I am actively seeking a mate drawing upon my utmost resources and using my ferocious nature. I will get my justice and my satisfaction one way or the other. That being said, WOE to HE who lays with me!!! His job will not be part-time nor seasonal. It is a full-time position which requires a great deal of attention and commitment. Please feel free to see the requirements noted on Myspace. Applications are now being accepted, however, the personnel office is temporarily closed (due to maintenance). Please see the receptionist.
I may be an old bitch, but I have lots of life left in me! ~ 7/20/06
I may be an old bitch, but I have lots of life left in me! ~ 7/20/06
Tuesday, July 4, 2006
A Shadow of Man
Amidst the midday a shadow is not cast
Yet lo, like the hand of a sundial, we do reflect the time
Our time
Askew at the first hour
And more so on the fourth
All is but a shadow
However, this shadow does bear semblance to its originator
Be they wide or narrow
Short or tall
One cannot tell one from the other
Lest they stand side by side
Then who is to judge the accuracy
Of that which is cast? - 7/4/06
Yet lo, like the hand of a sundial, we do reflect the time
Our time
Askew at the first hour
And more so on the fourth
All is but a shadow
However, this shadow does bear semblance to its originator
Be they wide or narrow
Short or tall
One cannot tell one from the other
Lest they stand side by side
Then who is to judge the accuracy
Of that which is cast? - 7/4/06
Saturday, July 1, 2006
An Ill request
Tis of a crooked night to save or borrow
That which means naught to sorrow
But left in destiny's hands
Ill, grave, wayward sadness
Marked upon my knitted brow
That which rhymes
Starved in pitied lights from near hearth
Spangled and withering
Left to dangle of idle husbandry
This will not find room in memory
But be spared time to wallow in gallantry
Take this dagger and lay it upon my heart
And spare me no recourse
As the cock will crow on the morrow - July 1, 2006
That which means naught to sorrow
But left in destiny's hands
Ill, grave, wayward sadness
Marked upon my knitted brow
That which rhymes
Starved in pitied lights from near hearth
Spangled and withering
Left to dangle of idle husbandry
This will not find room in memory
But be spared time to wallow in gallantry
Take this dagger and lay it upon my heart
And spare me no recourse
As the cock will crow on the morrow - July 1, 2006
SLEEPLESS EVE
SLEEPLESS EVE
Silly woman, dost thou think thou hast strength?
That which thou air is but a farce
Weak kneed is what thou art
Examine thyself and expose thyself
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Oh heart of mine
Why dost thou long for him?
He who is so distant
Tis months now that this hath be
And the longing is worse
Aye, thou hast attempted to put him aside
Time and time again
Blocking thought at every opportunity
Yet time always brings thee back to him
Why can’st thou shake this feeling?
What draws thee?
Thou hast lost the chess match
Twas self-defeating in nature
Now my strength wanes in this ordeal
Oh magnet of my heart
Attach thyself upon him
Go swiftly
And finally become one
The coldness of my sheets requires warmth
But whilst thou settle for warmth or seek fire?
He hast captured my mind
And thus has ignited me
Passion is my fire
Nay, time hast not run out
Thou art not dead yet nor is he
You must go to him
Quench this loneliness in the fountain of hope and desire
If in calculation thou hast erred,
Tis only a fool I will be
If grounded by cautiousness,
Thou whilst make me sorrowful
Oh heart lie down and rest and my let heals take flight
There may be gladness at the end of the road - 7/1/06
Silly woman, dost thou think thou hast strength?
That which thou air is but a farce
Weak kneed is what thou art
Examine thyself and expose thyself
------------------------------------------------------
Oh heart of mine
Why dost thou long for him?
He who is so distant
Tis months now that this hath be
And the longing is worse
Aye, thou hast attempted to put him aside
Time and time again
Blocking thought at every opportunity
Yet time always brings thee back to him
Why can’st thou shake this feeling?
What draws thee?
Thou hast lost the chess match
Twas self-defeating in nature
Now my strength wanes in this ordeal
Oh magnet of my heart
Attach thyself upon him
Go swiftly
And finally become one
The coldness of my sheets requires warmth
But whilst thou settle for warmth or seek fire?
He hast captured my mind
And thus has ignited me
Passion is my fire
Nay, time hast not run out
Thou art not dead yet nor is he
You must go to him
Quench this loneliness in the fountain of hope and desire
If in calculation thou hast erred,
Tis only a fool I will be
If grounded by cautiousness,
Thou whilst make me sorrowful
Oh heart lie down and rest and my let heals take flight
There may be gladness at the end of the road - 7/1/06
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