Possibilities:

Desire is that which drives us to do great things.  For this reason, I will go to any length to achieve my goal(s).  A goal was within reach on three occasions, and on three occasions, I reacted rather than acted.  Thus, I wonder what would have happened upon action?  As I cannot turn back the hands of time, I know that my next move is to ACT.  This is being worked on at the moment and as soon as possible, I will be doing exactly what my little heart desires.  I will turn intent in to action.

It seems that I am in a bizarre situation, but also one that seems to be reminiscent of a great past love.  It is reminiscent in the fact that I did not give up on him despite many issues.  One issue that drove me away from my past love for good was his heroin use.  I am not saying that a LOVE presently exists, however, an interest does lie and that interest is being greatly driven by a desire to KNOW.

Every negative possibility is looked at and then turned into a positive possibility.  When I adjust myself accordingly, I can twist anything into being so.  Look at yourselves.  Have you meet people from Myspace and has it ALWAYS turned out good?  Some will say yes, no, and yes and no.  Those that say no, I say to you...LOOK AT WHAT YOU HAVE LEARNED from the experience.  Knowledge gained at any level should be relished and appreciated as it adds to your being.  Strength is built from the ground up.  When you feel you are at your weakest point, you are actually at your strongest.  How so?   SURVIVAL!  Your base instinct (or primal instinct) is to survive.  As a result, you fight upon your weakness even if you are not aware of yourself doing so.  If you are still here, you have survived that which has brought you down.  Did it not add metal to your armor and make you stronger?

The adventure that I intend to make, come hell or high water, will serve two purposes.

1) My curiosity will be quenched at long last.
2) I will see if greater interest lies there.

As two people are involved, this is a two way street with two different sets of standards/values.  What may be a standard/value to one, my not be a standard/value to the other.  This pretty much goes for any relationship be it family, friend, or love.

With family and friends, physical attraction does not really come into play.  It does come into play more so with love.  As far as I am concerned, the mind is far more attractive than superficiality.  Superficiality is just that...superficial.  What happens then when the surface fades, what content of the package is now desirable?  We all know that with age, accident(s), or illness(es) things do deteriorate and/or change.  Therefore, when choosing a mate, is it not best to seek that which will still be available once the superficiality is morphed/changed?  Isn’t depth better, i.e, contents? 

Two people face possible acceptance/rejection.  With acceptance on any level, there is harmony.  Rejection is a bit different.  How the rejection is handled is where negative possibilities can turn into positive possibilities.  As common ground exists, there is a base to start with. The way I am viewing this, he will only be rejected if he is disrespectful. That is my standard/value.

As I cannot speak for him, I do not know what it is that will guide his evaluation of me.  In the event I am rejected, for whatever reason, I have vowed to chalk it up to experience and have a good laugh...preferably with him.  Also, I will have had the opportunity to travel and know another human being.  Hey, maybe a long lasting friendship can evolve if nothing more.  Those are the positive possibilities.  Not too bad huh?

Again, as I can only speak for myself, anger and/or ill feelings will not exist.  He is entitled to his own feelings and I will not force him to feel for me what he does not.  This has to be a natural occurrence or it is doomed to failure.

When you go off on an adventure without expectations, you cannot be disappointed. - 7/21/06