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Thursday, February 15, 2007

Thoughts on sex...

Yeah I have my sexual proclivities. I can say that I bend for the most part, but I won't break...no can do. Sex is not everything, BUT...once fed, I am like Audrey II from Little Shop of Horrors screaming "FEED ME!" Hell yeah I will DEMAND, EXPECT and TAKE if need be. It is best that bridge suspension cables be handy to hold me back. Then again, I like that!!! Spank me already!

Buttons...

Aren't buttons made to be pushed? Hell yeah! Sit anyone down in a room with a big red button that has a sign "don't push" on it. In solitude, that person can be whom they are and as no one is watching, or so they think, they will push that button just to see what happens. A person is like a big red button full of what would happen if... Each push triggers a response that is either negative or positive. The only way to find out the result is to push their buttons and see what happens. When a negative response is had, the experimenter has to figure out how to develop a positive response. A person is not like a real button that can only be pushed in. Thus new twists can be developed to get the desired result. Call it conditioning if you would like.

Playing the game...

It is best to mirror your opponent until you and your opponent become a team. What I have learned is that if you show too many of your cards while still at the table, you could lose the hand. If the person across from you dons a poker face, do the same. Then again, if a hand is offered, offer out your own to show equality. It is okay to make the first move and to watch for reciprocation. That in itself is a button. Give what you get and get what you give...but don't expect it. It is best to keep all internal mechanisms well oiled and in neutral. At some point you will know to either throw the shift in drive or to reverse and nail it.

More about the buttons...

Stress tests determine how much **pressure needs to be applied before a snap occurs. First you have to figure out what type of pressure is needed and when to apply it. The rules are that there are no rules. A snap does not have to be a bad thing unless that is the result that you want.

** Pressure does not mean putting someone under the gun with ultimatums. That is boring (sing that word). Pressure is a creative gesture used to elicit a response. As people are not dogs, you cannot use food to create the type of salivation that I look to elicit. Also, once a dog is fed and full, you will not get the result you want. Therefore, using various and creative stimulus, you set up to produce the variable response which also has a solid end result. At least that is what you shoot for. The intent is not to OFFICIALLY condition the subject as the response will not be spontaneous, but more at expected. Thus maintaining creativity using various applications, a "snap" should be produced.

Multi-dimensional peculiar individuals like myself make for wonderful test subjects as "out of the box" is far more interesting to work with. Trying to work with "in the box" FEAR or DENIAL subjects is like asking the blind to see. Without sight, much is closed and thus limited.

Granted, I have my own quirks and "NO Nos" within myself, however, under the right circumstances, NO can be YES or at least MAYBE thereby leaving the possibility open.

I keep trying to recall the term used when two people come together and do something that neither would do alone. When done is groups there is diminished guilt due to diminished self-awareness. Two people make a conscious decision to act in unison with equal responsibility. Both as individuals may think a thought yet not act on it. It is like the idea needs confirmation and acceptance from another individual who helps to catapult the idea into reality. I want to catapult and be catapulted. Just think of the adventure of it all!

I noticed that I am outwardly in denial of certain aspects of my own being, but inside I realize what is going on. It would seem that (again under the right circumstances) what lies within can be pulled out or catapulted by a conductor/semiconductor into reality with a sociopathic attitude. I like that idea. ~ Arachne ~ 2/15/07 @ 6:29 PM

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