Much was shared in the new and interesting arena. Much of what I thought would not occur did. Although I “FEEL” some change based on behavior/actions, at the same time, I see a conflict in behavior which is offsetting the building values to a degree. I also see two “non-follow through” events. Two items have been set aside which I deadened myself to. Only time will tell if the gifts of self are real as are the actions. At present the pro values seem valid, yet the con values also seem valid. I weigh and judge to see what happens next. When will “next” occur and to what degree? I give merit where merit is due, but demerit where that is due also. What change I have witnessed and experienced will sit along side what slights that have transpired. Both will not be forgotten, but the adverse can be forgiven. Will this happen again? I refer to the slights. If so, program terminates to the land of the virtual and hi/bye. Is this the way I want it? No, but it will not alter the outcome. I will not load the dice in my favor. I want to earn the favor and not obtain it through trickery or pressure. It will be more real than last time or it won’t. The batter is up to the plate. I will pitch three balls and if strikeout occurs, all will remain virtual as after that point, as I cannot go on in this vein mate.
Statements and offers were left without pressure. The offers were to please without self-hurt. I do know my limits. No second burner, no change in plans, it either is or it isn’t. The choice is yours and only yours. If three be taken as I stated, then my write is moot both here and there, but love and open doors will remain for life or until a shift occurs that will make expansion/other possibilities dead in the water.
I am thankful for what was shared and the levels they were shared at. Let us go on. “Stay Awhile.” ~ Maggie ~ 1/1/09 @ 3:12 a.m. EST.
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